a mind is very private..

i wasn't online for a couple of days due to new year stuff.

new year's eve was spent at home. had a couple of fireworks (the colored ones are always nice!) and ate.

we went to galle on new year's day. killed time shopping, shopping and window-shopping. i just loooooooove funky finds and girl shoppe!

i want a care bear. any care bear with stars (birthday gift, anyone?)

then we went to eastwood and watched "spirit of the glass." kuya marco made us libre. the movie was, hmmm, not that good. there were only 2 surprising parts and the rest was blah. we spent time laughing lang. imagine a disturbed soul wearing white?! then the ending didn't achieve its objective. i know what they wanted to happen, but how they presented it wasn't really effective.

after the movie, we went to a bar (forgot the name) and got ourselves drunk. michael was DRUUUUUNK! i was tipsy, BUT i was able to control myself (hi, paulinian batchmates! hehehe). i had this strawberry vodka and it didn't taste good, so i consoled myself and settled for vodka ice. i was able to knot two cherry stems too! que fun!

on the way home, kuya marco drove quite fast. i was thinking "okay, i'm ready to die anytime now!" but we got to their place safely at 3am. my sister and i slept at kuya marco's place. we dozed off at their home theater room. was supposed to watch feng shui but it was quite late already so we didn't!

the following day we went to greenhills. shopped! hehe,, i got this pink set of lingerie with a playboy bunny print. it looks cute! i'll wear it on monday. then we went to blue ridge cuz there was this reunion. but my sister, michelle, michael and i went to eastwood again. shopped, had a neoprint, and the works.

yesterday i went to my dad's house, then went home, then went to manila. my canadian relatives took a tour in intramuros. i saw the walled place and crap! i want to stage "ang paglilitis ni mang serapio" there. i imagined putting the whole thing together, and my imagination was working so well, it looked quite pretty. we then ate dinner at the sea food wharf. yum! lobster!

now i'm stuck at home while poj and ate phoebe are with family at subic. i'm cramming homework. not such a good feeling.

pains me that there's school tomorrow. but hey! when there's school tomorrow, as well as in the next 2 months, there would be playshop after! yehes! playshop! and hopefully, i could balance it with violin lessons!

summer, come to me now.

so i didn't expect me to be offline for such a long time! i skipped school on wednesday because everyone n the family was still tamad to go back to reality. we ate out, roamed around, did whatever. we rode the trailer by the way. and funny, there was this guy who thought michael was a celebrity. he waved at michael, and michael waved back, and this man looked so elated upon being waved at by michael!

thursday i went to school already though i was windang. we went out also. we had dinner at gb3 and shopped for stuff. we got home at 1am i think. worth the puyat naman cuz i was with my cousins. oh! thursday also, i bought myself a "BOP IT! extreme2" which i find super aliw (i'm a bop it! expert now! bow to me!) and on this day too, i passed the banaag deliberations which means i'm a full-fledged banaager.

friday was the last day of tito greg's family so we spent it in eastwood. ayun, we ate dinner, shopped (i bought a bratz wallet and a pair of earrings) and we had coffee, bonded, played bop it! and talked. we slept at kuya marco's theater. we woke up at 6am and said our goodbyes to michelle, michael, tito greg and tita annie. they were all crying cuz they didn't want to leave. eh, oh well.. so they're back in canada now, and we're still here. i don't want to leave though cuz my friends are here.

anyhoo, ate joy emailed the details of the "once on this island." auditions. i thought it was going to be beauty and the beast? hmm.. whatever! i dunno if i'm auditioning though. parang pamatay eh.. yipes!

i'm not in the mood to blog, but i'm blogging. wala lang. wala lang akong masabi.

i can't believe life is back to normal. school na ulet. this sucks. plus, we have this pedigree chart due tomorrow. katamaaaad!

well, at least we have a new videocard. the sims 2 is working ultra fast now! yehey!

yun lang! ciao! if you want to get info on the "once on this island" auditions, comment here. samahan nyo ko if in case i'll audition!

happy birthday ilsa!

whoa, i can't believe i'm not anymore blogging as frequently as before. well, we're doing a lot in school, (english play, speechfest, intrams, club) and when i get home all i could think of is going to bed.

so i'm not auditioning for "once on this island" anymore cuz i don't have my voice back yet and i needed my voice this week for my demo cd. (btw, thanks SO MUCH MAYA, for giving me the adobe audition thing!) well, my voice ain't back yet so i'm still not talking much (except when there are freshmen cheering beside me. malamang lumalaban ako! tss.. co-ed na daw kasi when they came along! bwehehehehe..) pero i only started talking quite a lot when i decided to not go through the horror of making a demo cd. i'm still doing everything to make my voice come back though. hay, please pray that it does come back before my birthday.

i'm planning to audition for "beauty and the beast" though. i don't care if i don't get in. most probably, i won't get in. but what the heck, auditions are fun cuz that's the time everyone gets jittery, and i'm reminded of the william hung in me. wehehe..

i dunno yet what to bring other than myself, a photo maybe (i'm vain therefore i have no problem with photos), a minus one cd maybe, a music sheet of course, a resume, and of course, a well-conditioned voice and an understanding of what i'll be singing.

again, half of what i'm doing is going to be for fun since i know i have NO CHANCE of being in the theater business. i love it but there's no sign that my love for it is being reciprocated. but if things go wrong and i get accepted, eh di good for me. otherwise, normal lang yun! but mind you, i still love performing more than any other thing i THINK i could do.

banaag had a lot of laughs today. we love what we're coming up with this february. watch out for it! it's going to be so aliw! hehehe.. spice girls.

i suddenly begin to miss my tamagotchi days.

we went to mcdo after the club meeting and had more laughs there. the banaag green batch will be joining the fun run tomorrow, but we will be "fun walking" because we don't like to run. plus, we'll sweat if we run kaya i don't want to end up being smelly! eeeeew!

i loved our indoor soccer game kanina. idol ko si aziel! and our volleyball team was awesome! yehes, championships na! wala n s basketball pero ayos lang. unfair kasi yung basketball - "guys" vs girls? hay. grow up!


anyhoo, laro na ulit ng the sims 2! i'm in love with our videocard! baboo!

P.S.: to people who have music sheets of nice songs i know, please be heart-ful enough to gimme music sheets! i dunno yet what to sing eh.. love you!

shit! i watched "my sassy girl" for the 2d time last tuesday, and oh my gosh, it still drove me to tears! i mean, however could i not cry?

it was really so galing! call me a freak and all (i'm proud of being a freak anyways) but it's really a great movie.

cheesy, but i loved the scene when gyun-woo gave the rose during class.

but the best part pa rin yung 10 rules thing.

and the ending, when everything came running through my head (with me reacting like, "oh my gosh! kaya pala! oh really? oh my gosh! so THAT's why he never visited! blah blah blah..") it was just marvelous! haha!

the girl's just so pretty! i like her! and now i've turned into someone who has these cheesy dreams of a man actually doing all those stuff. tss. as if men are like that! wag na noh. asa pa ko?

todo keso, ndi ko nakayanan.

pero kahit anong pilit kong sabihin na ayoko ng mga love love na yan, kinilig ako.

jologs ba?

anung magagawa ko? ganda yung movie eh.

i looooove my new toy, the Adobe Audition. sorry ngayon lang ako nagkaroon nun eh! anyhoo, it's really nice and easier to use compared to Soundforge. speaking of soundforge, Hogi and i were talking about the karaoke cd of "Wicked" and we came to the jologs topic of making minus ones through the karaoke feature of the component. sa cassette tape pa yun nun! now it's evolved through the "voice remover" feature of soundforge and adobe audition, so sa cd na. but the same thing pa rin - there's still this trail of the original voices!

i'm inis that i haven't played "dare ya!" yet. i mean, i haven't "officially" played with it. i just explored it and stuff. twas what i got kasi for christmas from my aunt.

may i just say, girl tech and youniverse rock! they have the best toys ever! thank God for landes and hobbes stores!

of course, nothing beats my favorite, BOP IT! hehe.. it's such a cool toy! you can buy loads of fun for only 650 bucks! oh! make that 649.75 bucks! it's really cool! hehehe.. i'm in love with my bop it.


shifting gears, the intrams ended today. we landed 2d place in volleyball (twice to beat! tssss..) but we did win in badminton!

jow, jussell and i were supposed to be in the "fun walk" (because we think running is nakakatamad to do) but then we thought walking would be just as nakakatamad!

on the way pa to our classrooms, jow and i spotted some freshmen in front of us, and we were like "that's my boy! that's my boy!" and i think they got inis. i'm good with it.

the freshmen beat the seniors in basketball though. (baka lang ma-disqualify sila. WOMEN's basketball yun eh) and they were shouting "MVP" whenever this freshman had the ball. jow was like "MVP? most valuable playboy?" hehehe.. bangag!

with all the asaran that went on, i don't think i heard a batch that was awarded a sportsmanship award. what i noticed though, was that everyone ganged up on the freshmen. last year naman it wasn't like that. ayos lang, ndi naman ako freshman eh. hehe. yun lang!


i'm looking for a music sheet of "shy" from "once upon a matress" but i can't seem to find any sources. AT, malapit na birthday ko (hint hint, get me that music sheet for my birthday?! oo, i need it THAT badly!)

if i don't get to find a music sheet of shy, then i'll stick with my previous promise. i remember blogging "i promise to sing Zero to Hero the next time i audition!"............ shets! will i make it come true? nyikes! i'm such a freak.

ayoko na nga! i'm not making sense anymore. baboo!

aie! pahabol! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KEN!

hi! i'm looking for a summer acting workshop teacher who could teach for 2 weeks of summer. it's going to be around the 1st two free weeks of summer. please do tell me if you're interested.

the group you're going to teach is quite a tame group. we have the talent to start with. all we need are "reminders" that we tend to forget when we do start off with projects.

contact me through here if you want to take the job! we'd be more than happy to consider you!

i'm finally putting the finishing touches on this play i'm writing for english class. our teacher said that the other groups wrote crappy ones. if she thinks what i wrote is crap, then she'll get a piece of me..

wanna die?

so this is a group activity, and i'm playing the lead and writing the script. but don't get me wrong! i'm not complaining! nasstress lang ako. to think i'm part of the speechfest core group pa and we're going nowhere. hehehe..

i'm excited for banaag's last production for this school year. i hope it'd be successful. hay, after the prod, wala na, goodbye blue batch. i'll miss them a lot. oh well.. after that, vacation na.. banaag summer workshop na. i'm eyeing on possible great teachers.. sana we get a good one. (good one meaning one who would play new york lemonade! hehe,, ang babaw ko!)

beauty and the beast auditions on jan.22. i wanna audition. hehe, duh?! pero for fun nga lang. if i get in, eh di good for me. problem is, i've searched for music sheets, but the one i'm looking for ain't available. nakakabanas! grarr! oh well, i'll stick with whatever i have. i'm excited though!

again, this entry's going nowhere.

i wanna play new york lemonade but i'm alone. so i'm listening to "hear my song" from songs for a new world. hello to jason robert brown! friends tayo! hehe.. (i'm malabo. forgive.)

my birthday's nearing. field trip pa on my birthday. hehe.. labo. my sister wants me to go with her on my birthday.

and i'm making parinig, i want music sheets of all my favorite songs from all the best musicals on my birthday.

i'm bad.

hay, better get back to work. but still, i made parinig. sana may nakarinig.

i haven't typed my resume yet and the audition is on saturday morning. nice.

so i haven't blogged for quite a while. was busy with school (whatever?!) and we're pressured to come up with "something presentable" for the speechfest.

get this: we're only starting on the 2d half. we haven't memorized it yet as a class. kaya we're giving out the award to whoever SOPHOMORE class willing to fight (of course we're not giving it out on a freshman class). ayun. our goal na lang is to make ourselves presentable. we don't want competition anymore.

yung juniors and seniors nga, they were like "o sige sa inyo na lang yan!" cuz they're tamad to do it also.

everyone's tamad to do something for just 5 points because that's just 5 points. it's in english pa eh english is a whatever subject lang naman.

shifting gears, it's our field trip tomorrow. and tomorrow, i officially get OLD! it's sweet sixteen for me, but i really am old already! yipes!

i went to cost-u-less today for some grub i'll bring for the field trip. hay, as usual, i went wild at that place again. yum! they have jolly rancher! and there's also mike&ike! pero i only bought nerds and pixy stix and some chips and willy wonka stuff.. i figured, if i let loose once in a while, ayos lang.. besides, i lose 2lbs a week naman eh.. can manage.

my gosh, i'm getting old (ate joy, you DID NOT read that!) and i can't seem to think maturely. i don't care. i'm having fun with how i am now.

i don't think i'll sleep tonight. must accomplish math homework as well as coordinate with cala for the script revisions. teacher says what i wrote was quite short and had way too much kissing scenes. *a** *** nya! hehehe..
shit, did i just censor that? i don't allow censorships. not in my blog. so ayun, tang ina nya.

i watched american idol last night. crap! that mary person in red was schizo! she had voices in her head! haha! and that braxton guy was just horrible. and the guy who sang "tomorrow" was so funny! he's a big guy and that's what he sings? nakakatakot! then he held his notes for soooooo long! i tried to beat him by trying to hold my note for as long as i can. 30seconds lang eh. in school i reached only 19 seconds. grarr.. uh, birthday party game ba?!

aika got chicken pox. hope she gets better soon.
sige, i won't fight with you anymore. i will be good.

short tribute: being 15 years old wouldn't be this happy if not for the freaks. i love you guys so much! who's like us? DAMN FEW!

and to those who greeted my already, i appreciate it! thanks so much! i mean, fine, rub it in - i'm getting old.. but still, the thought that you've been greeting way before my birthday, it's quite sweet of you guys!

to me: walang hiya ka! grow up and get a life. hehehe..

i like my life the way it is. sure there has to be some changes (switch schools maybe? no hope na. hay.) but i'm dealing with everything i have. i love my friends, i'm thankful for my family, and i love being my freaky self.

i love bitching out and being me!

story on yesterday to follow cuz i'm quite in a rush..

thanks a lot to those who greeted me yesterday! had one of the best birthdays ever!

and now i shall get ready to humiliate myself. i'm off to the beauty and the beast auditions!

i wanna be a spoon! i wanna be a spoon! haha!

i'll be grateful for whatever they'd give me.

bye for now, and wish me luck!

yesterday was my birthday. luckily for me, it was our field trip too!

i realized a bunch of things though before going on the trip. first, i felt unlucky cuz my globeline got cut. i mean, of all days, why on my birthday? so there, i used poj's phone to say my thank you's to the people greeting me. second, i lost one of my star earrings. i liked that pair pa naman. it's silver and it's a star.. hay, sayang..

i thought that with those circumstances, i better enjoy the rest of the day. good thing i did!

the first place we went to had food galore. up side: i had no problem "treating" my friends because they served free food! hehe.. the pizza was good.. ayun..

the temples were boring. the sikh temple gave us their holy food, and it tasted quite icky cuz the texture was mushy.

i had fun in the bus. we sang a lot! sana lang songfest na lang this year instead of speechfest kasi mas madali eh.. tssss... sayang.. we have a lot of singers pa naman in class. may backtracks kami like spice girls, backstreet boys, etc. at shempre ndi mawawala ---- ang bagong song sa coke commercial!

i was inis pa cuz i thought i was late na for the MISAya saya 2 at dish abscbn cuz the show started at 7:30 and i reached school at 8. buti na lang, the show started at 8-ish na!

MISAya saya 2 is a comedy show by the MISA org of ateneo. basta it's a stand-up comedy thing. fun night, sobra!

first surprise: i got myself a seat na at dish. i was with pau, tiff and ate phoebe. the host looked familiar. c missy! (maramara).. wala lang.. like, whoa! haha!

the first performers were the philippine playhouse. they're a group that did improvs. guess what: missy, my sister, pau and tiff volunteered me for their first thing! i was their "sacrifice" volunteer! so i gave in.

second surprise: after i did the volunteering thingy, i checked my phone and got a text message from kuya macky. he was astonished that i was there daw!

so i went to the bar of dish and talked with kuya macky. he was like, "i was scanning the volunteer and wondered who the heck was the third one, it was you pala!"... onga naman. what are the odds diba?

before tim tayag performed, missy asked me to sit in front cuz no one was there. it was the front-center seat! i was thinking, "oh crap. tim tayag is sure to make fun of me!"

i was damn right! he was making a lot of eye contact towards me. then after a while, he asked what my name was. i was grilled kasi since the start pa lang cuz when i became the "sacrifice volunteer," everyone found out that i was the only high-schooler there. basta yun. he said he remembered his high school days and taught me a style of men when they call on the phone. it was like,

guy: hello? pauline? i was just thinking, if you were a flower, which bee would you choose to suck honey out of you?

shets, ang green ng ibang jokes nya, ayan tuloy, benta sakin! hehehe..

ayun, i had such a fun night!

on to suprise #3: i had such a chill today. the whole morning i was jittery and all! i auditioned for "beauty and the beast" and it was super nervous even if all i wanted to do was "audition to be a spoon." really. i want to be a spoon! i didn't want to be belle.. i wanted to be a spoon! anyhoo, while i was waiting i was shaking all over! when i was filling up the form, my penmanship was horrible because i was shaking! haha!

and guess what! when i entered the room, i saw teacher chari! my third surprise! then the pianist there was teacher jojo, the pianinst when i was in teacher tonipet's class!

fourth surprise: i was ready to sing and when i was singing, they raised the piece a notch higher! so i was belting out every note as high as i could get. sobrang i almost died singing!

after the audition i was still shaking. i texted teacher chari, "please don't sure me for being the next william hung, teacher chari! all i wanted was to be a spoon!" and she replied. she said i did well daw. ayun. i miss playshop.

after that i went to shang and bought a book, looked around shang also (the burger king area was scrapped but not yet replaced. stageworx is surprisingly gone. well, at least the facade of it was gone. no more sign with the lights and a small trumpets booth on the side.).. nakaka-senti that the stageworx sign wasn't there anymore. pero sana playshop would still be held there.

now i'm in the comfort of my home. thanking God that i had a great start this weekend.

i do know that ate caisa, ate joy, kuya macky and the freaks who auditioned will get in. as for me, there'll be more plays.

i still want to be a spoon.

i'm writing this as nicely as i can.

i'm having this crap going on in my head.

on the night of my birthday, before heading to dish, i got a message from a friend, telling me to forgive someone. basta it was like, "sige na, christmas gift mo na lang yun sakin. i-forgive mo na sha" blah..

sorry, i know you're reading this, pero na-frustrate ako..

you don't know how much she hurt me. fine, i may have hurt her too, and i did mean to hurt her. not minding her was fine enough for me. but forgiving her? talking to her? i'm not sure if i'm not ready to do it, or if i don't want to do it at all. i mean, sa isang message lang, mawawala na agad yung grudge that i kept for around three years? to think text message lang yun ah! wala man lang confrontations or whathaveyou? uh, wherever did sincerity go? technology will never beat actual communication, kaya don't expect me to respond in a manner that won't hurt.

hindi ko alam kung bakit ko 'to sinusulat dito.. pero parang alam ko na.

on new year's day, i swore to never talk about crappy stuff again (crappy stuff=go figure)..... we agreed on not talking about crappy stuff for this year at least. kasi alam ko na if we talk about it, mag-aaway lang kme.

then this is what happens?

forgiveness for something grave won't happen under pressure. if you're pressuring me to talk, magtago ka na lang sa bato.

sayang yung birthday ko, may nangyari pang gnun.

wala lang. sana kahit yung araw na yun man lang, naging completely happy ako.

eh di, maghihintay na naman ako ng isang buong taon, hoping na yung araw na yun, walang mangyaring hindi maganda.

ah, bwiset. tsssss....

i liked today for the mere fact that we had no school. there was this ptc thingy for those who flunked subjects, and for those who are repeating.

o tapos? walang pasok. yun na yun!

oh! oh! i acquired a 20q! hehe,, it's a thingy that asks 20 questions and guesses what you're thinking. funny how most of the time it guesses quite accurately. minsan, it becomes scary na.

i'm bummed that there's gonna be school again tomorrow. nakakabanas na. i mean, when will this end? grarr..

tomorrow ba distribution of report cards? i dunno when eh.. hay. see? i'm bangag na! i'm so sick of school! i want to jump to summer vacation na! i wanna go to playshop! i need a hero! somebody save me?

i want to go to hong kong disneyland when it opens. kaso lang september pa. wala lang, i just wanna check the place out. sana the mascots would speak in chinese! i tokyo disneyland, i couldn't understand a thing! imagine, mickey mouse and the whole entourage spoke japanese! nakaka-freak out!

i'm such a sucker for sick blogs. i hate it when this happens. it's purely random thoughts lang. nothing juicy. what's to become of me? hay...

i want to watch "my sassy girl" again. kaso lang, dandan's going to borrow my copy. when i get it back na lang. hay, cheesy stories. they make me sick, but i admit, kinikilig din ako minsan.

wah, whatever..

i'm supposed to do the powerpoint thingy for computer but i'm not in the mood. what the heck, computer lang yan! i hate computer class anyways.. hehe.. pwet kasi yung nagtuturo! i'm mean, and still loving it.

we watched "the passion" in c.l class today. i cried again! nakakahiya! pero, oh well, when i'm frustrated, everything just flows. i mean, whoa, enough of this being cheery all the time. everyone knows i'm bothered. mga ibang factors kasi jan.. tsss....

shit, i'm talking to myself again..

i'm freaked out. i asked for some signs, nagkatotoo lahat! does it mean...? hay, i'm getting nervous tuloy.

sorry, i know everyone can't relate. i'm talking to myself. well, what's the point of typing stuff which others could relate to? wala naman nagcocomment eh.. (drama?!)

pat invited me to the spcp soph night. i dunno if i should go though. i mean, i'll be o.p lang for sure. shempre may distance na and all. ayun.. chka, ewan. i dunno din naman what i will do there. hay..

i got my grades today. still the usual crap. from there, i've adapted to the new expression i'll use everyday.. droga na lang? hehehe.. anyways, ang ayoko sa grades ko, nakaka-grrrr.. pero i'm not doing anything about it. i'm still doing the same old crap. ms. claire cruz once said something about giving bullshit grades. may point sha.

why am i talking about school anyways? there are a billion other things which are actually worth my attention. i've said it before and i'll say it again. school is crap. obvious naman eh..

grarr! i just had to finish the computer report today! the powerpoint crap. hmph. i really hate that teacher. oh wait, a teacher should be a person - she (it?) isn't. such an ass.. hay! bwiset!

we had a discussion at homeroom time today. pano ba naman, in the report cards, some couldn't get honors cuz of their grade in homeroom. namigay daw ba ng B- and C? tang ina! ayun, we fought with our teacher kanina. mali pa yung breakdown niya ng grade. palibhasa walang alam. then when we were asking her (it) our questions as to why this happened, all she (it) answered was "i don't know.."

student: ms why did i get a C? my previous grade was an A-. have i changed that much?
how could you even judge me and give me that grade when you weren't with the class for like 3/4 of the grading period?
shouldn't you double check or even triple check before writing that grade on the report card?
do you know how much damage you've done?

ass: i don't know. / hindi ko alam..

me: eh anong alam mo?


again, i'm on with being myself. hehehe..

anyways, we had club today, and i did miss banaag a lot. tagal din since we last met. speechfest kasi - getting in the way! grarr.. ayun. then i got to stay with gaye and ate kookie and a bunch of other seniors and sir andre for quite a while. wala lang, fun..

when i got home, i used the p.c agad to work on the shit i have to pass tomorrow. but then distractions that aren't really distractions came along. i had loads of fun in ym with pam, kim, ate joy, laura and inna.

i was supposed to join a conference with ii-6. but then i made myself a promise that i will exit the conference window once i see a name of a guy. they always rave about guys, nakakainis. i'll only rave about a guy when i'm sure that i'll make a baby with him. but now? no way. to hell with raging hormones. tapos na ko dun. ewan ko. i find it irritating that people in class rave about boys 24/7.. kapag gnun yung conversations, walk out na lang ako. i can't take it eh.. it's just so immature and immaturely annoying. why on earth will you talk about guys and get kilig when you know you'll never be together?

ewan ko ba. droga na lang..

promise, in every conversation, i shall exit the ym window at the sight of people ranting and raving about their love lives. manigas kayong lahat!

droga na lang!

yesterday was a half day at school.. but we had this dry run thingy which ended when we went to the sportscom so we just left. ayun.

stressful! speechfest yesterday and we were the 4th to perform. we didn't have classes na and it was expected din naman na pagbigyan kami ng teachers. kung nde, tang ina nila. hehe.. ayun. it was fine naman. i mean, with the shit that's been going on during rehearsals, they FINALLY gathered conscience and participated ON THE DAY ITSELF. it didn't look crammed kaya ayos lang.. kaso lang the technicals went berserk.. tss.. oh well, tapos na eh..

after school my classmates and i had lunch at sweet inspirations (thanks a bunch, nika!).. food was great! hehe.. blueberry cheesecake was awesome! then we went to national to shop for stuff they need for the playprod (well i didn't really need stuff.. i just bought a book) and i acquired a copy of "alamat ng gubat" by bob ong. the man never ceases to amaze me. galing nya!

then went back to s.i, then went to mcdo, then went to 711 and back to s.i and i left na for seattle's best. (shit, must've gained a lot!)..

so i watched this ateneo children's theater (ACT) play with poj so that he could get plus points in behavior i think. (gosh, their behavior grade is quite expensive ah!) so we watched the King and I.. review? well, i don't appreciate really old stuff so i guess the kids didn't appreciate it as well. the piece itself was just so boring. maybe even the actors got sick of it. i mean, the cast was good. like, they had fine voices and they were good actors. kaso lang the play they did was hard to keep alive. oh well. last year's piece was a better piece. maybe they could do something of that sort din next year.

i didn't go to the ateneo fair cuz there was no one and nothing for me to see naman. most girls went there to flirt, and i'm not most girls.

i'm grateful that speechfest is over. now i could concentrate on things worth prioritizing. there's the playprod in english/social and banaag's last show. this week we'll be bombarded with meetings na! i should give more priority to the playprod cuz it's our exam in social studies and english, but the banaag show is essential too cuz i'm going to sing. well, good luck na lang sa priorities ko.. hay, the demands of being in banaag - you get cursed in the playprod, and you have club rehearsals to worry about.

hay ewan. basta i'm here at home, there's no school on monday, and i'll kiss this weekend and try my hardest to make it worry-free.

oh! oh! it just came to me! it's my 1st anniversary here in tabulas! means i've been posting lots of useless junk for a year now! wow! i've had more than 365 entries though. so it means i've posted at an average of 1.something for every day. hmmmm....

i'm still not sure if i'm going to the spcp soph night (didn't go to the mchs soph night because i didn't like the bands performing, plus i got tired at the audition).. their soph night will be on feb 5, and i'm not sure if my mom will allow me.. plus, what will i wear? kung ndi ako maging overdressed, baka underdressed naman! haha! well, i'm thinking of the black dress i wore in Sideshow, the sparkly one na halter top on the new year's day scene.. ewan. i don't want to spend for a new one naman cuz i'll wear the thing once lang naman. ano ko, tanga? kaso lang i've read blogs and realized everyone's gonna be in black so parang ang boring.. hmm, daanin ko na lang sa face value.. ako lang naman meron nun eh (shit, where'd that come from?)

hayyy.. before deciding on what to wear, sana lang payagan muna ko noh.. for pam, and pat, and everyone else who invited me.. thanks for the invites, guys. sure ba kayo okay lang?


there's no school tomorrow and i'm thankful. there's english/social exam to think about pa. tang ina, the script i wrote didn't get approved. she was like "i know you can do better" which translates to "palitan mo, ang pangit." ayos lang, mas pangit pa rin sha. sabi ko nga, kung face value na lang din ang usapan, sha ang unang matatanggal.. tsss..

i listened to Wicked last friday. hay, the music is just so amazing. the cast is comprised of such fine voices. my classmate listened to "for good" cuz i let her listen to it, and she said i sound like glinda. kuya macky said the same thing when he gave the soundtrack to the freak family! awww... memories..

i kept on listening to "what is this feeling" also cuz i felt the same thing - unaulterated loathing! and of course, however could i miss the super senti "i'm not that girl" which has been part of my life since i realized that i really am not that girl after all..

of course, that music session was brought to us by petsy's adorable cd player. it looks really pretty! want to get myself one of those..

so i guess that's all i want to say. good luck na lang sakin..

again, the title was a product of thinking on my nose. thanks, nose.

my mom went to my room this morning and asked my why i'm absent today. uhm, sana alam nyang walang pasok noh? president's day kse..

anyways, i asked for permission for the spcp soph night last night. i got a huge NO followed by a "you should think first before having the final say."

she doesn't want to allow me because people might talk trash about me daw cuz i'm not one of them anymore. hello? sila nga nag-invite sakin eh, tapos sila yung magttrash talk? ma, ang labo. paki explain?!

hay, will i go nga ba tlga?

i'm having the time of my life being alone. i'm not having the time of my life being alone. iba pa rin kapag all three siblings don't have school.. mas chaotic. mas enjoy.

however, i still prefer staying here at home than going to hell.. err, school.. i can record songs (not now cuz my voice is ruined again and i'm hating it even more now), play sims 2, play ps2, watch t.v, read books, and be myself. tama.

i watched wazzup wazzup today and i caught sight of their coverage of the photo mosaic unveiling. naaaliw ako! haha! it was so nice! it had around 35000 pics in it daw. then i realized, parang sa lahat ng cameras at camera phones ng classmates ko, may pic/s ako! wala lang. pero just to make it clear, i'm not vain.

yun lang! oh my gosh, my wife and kids na! gotta scram!