a mind is very private..

i went to the cemetery (loyola) yesterday. left the house at 11:30am and got there at 12! galing, 30mins lang?

when we got there, tito got an mms from my mom.. twas all the candy that ate phoebe got.. she trick or treated there din pala! i thought i was gonna make her inggit when she gets back.. ako naman maiinggit s knya! hehe.. i saw the pic and whoa! her bag is heapin with tootsie rolls and DOTS! like, tootsie rolls are rarely given out here. in canada, it's like tootsie rolls are all they're giving away!

anyhoo, there were a LOOOOOOOT of people! super crowded! dami na palang namamatay ngayon noh? hmmm... ayun, so i was there with my cousins and (would you believe? i'm sooooo old!) my nieces! they're so big na, and so pretty! as usual, hannah, poj and i were the pigs.. we ate a lot, then stayed in kuya marco's trailer after..

our lunch was yummy! but still i made sure my diet was followed.. :angel:

oh i loooooooved staying in the trailer! there are 2 beds, a potty, a television, a faucet, a microwave, and a stove.. i could LIVE there na! so malamang, from 2pm til 8pm, the three of us stayed there lang.. we were watching t.v as miles (the driver's name is Miles.. tamang tama for his job! hehe,, nakakaaliw!) got us a 1.5 liter bottle of coke LIGHT and 3 glasses, of course.. hannah's trick or treat stuff were there also, so that was enough to bum!

in the afternoon the adults called us for a snack.. oh, grub again! shox, i feel i'm gaining again! NOOOOOOOOOO! gosh, poj hoarded the food! he even brought a whole plate full of food back to the trailer! who's pigging out?!

at around 7 we turned on the lights na cuz it was dark inside.. but we decided we're better off without lights.. we just talked and played with light sticks.. ang tawag dun, bonding!

we prayed at 8.. and we got picked up at a little bit later than 8:30..

had dinner at yellow cab katips. yum! we got 4 seasons but replaced the anchovy-ed pizza with 4 cheese.. ooooooohhhhh.. haha!

while waiting for our food, tito went outside. then he called poj.. poj came back in and told me to look at the moon.. ooooooohhh.. creepy!

i got a realization last night while talking to poj. he said he really wants to spend time with me. cuz i'm always out daw and i come home late, then there's a deluge of homework for me to do when i'm home.

it only means one thing: homework should not be done.. homework is more like hellwork. it ruins homes by giving people less time to spend with their families..

survey-answering is soooooo not me.. just goes to show i'm not ready for school

what's the first thing you think of when someone says:

1. flowers
*for me?

2. rain
*no school

3. darkness
*sad

4. friendship
*cinco

5. pencil
*math

6. long distance relationships
*not working!

7. plastic
*blech

8. bed
*REST

9. government
*grarr!

10. water
*beach

11. blue
*eagle

12. braces
*bad teeth

13. love
*kelan pa?

15. school
*crap

16. family
*home

17. kiss
*me

18. survey
*odd

19. friendster
*everyone's connected

20. mc donalds
*one cheeseburger meal go big time with coke light, please?

21. california
*MAKI! mmm.. yum!

22. yellow
*last year's banaag yellow

23. finger
*si *****<<-- alam toh ni pat chka ni aika! wehehe..

24. honey
*kelan ba?!

25. cell phone
*can't live without it!

26. eagle
*archer

27. pillow
*vacation

28. boxers
*oohlala! hehe,,

29. lipstick
*must shop for more!

30. boracay
*party

31. advertising
*ate phoebe

32. color
*PINK!

33. white
*goes well with PINK!

34. movies
*pirated vcd's and dvd's

35. peanuts
*for dieting

36. yawn
*sleep will set you freeeee...

37. health
*MUST GET THIN!

38. mouse
*the white mice we bought and gave away

39. makati
*advertising.. vtr.. commercial..

40. teacher
*may hw ba? tama na ah!

41. angelo dela cruz
*argh

42. separation
*siamese twins.. hi daisy and violet!

44. underwear
*avenue q

45. air plane
*when will my mom and sister come back?

46. occasion
*xmas

47. tongue
*ring.. daddy franz!

48. jeepney
*spongecola

49. kwek-kwek
*anu po yun??

50. magical
*mystical adventure.. barney

i don't want to go to school!

our ultra-short sembreak is over. feels bad that in a few hours, i'll be waking up to the sound of my phone alarm -- in the morning! que panget!

i loved some parts of the break though. the major highlight being trick or treating!

i did not really dress up as in DRESS UP. i just wore that fave black leather skirt of mine, a black top with red shimmers and chains on it, and black shoes. before i went out, i didn't know what to answer to the question "who are you going as?".. but the moment i got out, i knew the answer.. i went as my inner self..

my make-up skills were tried during trick or treat. i had to put make-up on poj and myself. now i'm perfecting my skills on applying eyeliner. i'm getting better!

i spent a while doing the english essay. argh! i didn't want to work on it, but since it's "i'll do it or i'll go down the drain again come report card day," i gave in and worked on it.

tomorrow's a wednesday. there'd be classes in the morning, recess, classes, lunch (rehearsal i suppose), classes in the afternoon, and rehearsal at dismissal time til 6pm. critic show's on november 5. i shouldn't miss it -- cuz my cast is performing on the critic show.

poj and i share the same agony knowing that we have to wake up at 5am again tomorrow. it hurts, actually. it's hard to let go of a life filled with rest and relaxation. i have to go back to artificial energy. for another long period of time i have to go back to extra joss again. i'm not liking the feeling.

can't we just have a little more time for bumming?

can't i live a little?

the work's real hard and the pay's real low
and every hour goes oh so slow

actually there's no pay for me! i get fulfillment only when there's nowhere to go but home. i want to spend time at home.

i'm sick. just sick of it all

i feel so jaded/wasted/whatever you call it..

today was, oh my gosh, really tiring!

i feel like it's monday today. the icky feeling that monday brings was exactly how i felt today.

good thing there's club day today! well, i have club everyday but still i'm thankful for club.. it's my savior! banaag really is something. hay.

once more i'm getting used to going home at night, doing homework, sleeping late and waking up early, going to school early (crap, i reach school at 6:30am! last year i reached school after 7am!), going home late, doing homework, sleeping late, same old shit.

like i said, i'm not really into school stuff. i'm not a school person. i'm just me.

my alter ego shall come out later tonight. my "studious" side shall do filipino homework and read chapter 11 of the bio book.

obviously not liking it!

i can't wait for friday to come! yipee! it's already friday on friday! nov.5.. hmm.. wonder wut's so special bout it.. hehehe..

hi vii-5 '03!

i need a hero! (doo doo doo doo.. ahh! ahh!)

dead tired. ready for homework, so that i can go to bed already..

MY EARPHONES ARE HEAVILY DAMAGED!

argh. i got it back after rehearsal yesterday. didn't use my discman last night cuz well, i didn't feel like doing so.

nika borrowed my earphones today and i saw a shiny red line on it. thinking and hoping twas just a piece of dirt..

i stared in shock upon knowing that it wasn't!

of course i didn't hate the fact that it was damaged for the sole reason that i'm still using it. heck, i can buy new ones anytime.

i'm depressed because of its sentimental value. i remembered everyone who used it - old friends, new ones. of course, i remembered more of the old friends.

i can't believe i'm finally saying goodbye to it.

promise, i'll keep it somewhere safe. where no one can touch it except me.

i don't care how it got damaged. i don't care who damaged it. at least it's with me.

if you're saying i'm mababaw, i don't care. i'm really sooooo into memories.. hehe..

byebye, earphones! i love you!

from the mourning i did in the morning, nothing's changed. i'm still sad. well, make that, "i still feel bad."

i'm anxious for a couple of reasons: critic show tomorrow, MY CAST! everyone's gonna be there. english teachers, filipino teachers, c.l teachers, i forgot the other subject area! whoops! anyhoo, of course the usual critics would be there like sir andre, maybe sir jeff, and other teachers who need not be invited cuz they tend to invite themselves! haha! oh! and some say that ms wada will be there! hehe.. so, that's pretty much the pressure i'm handling. wish me survival.

i hate my costume. totally dorkily made! que panget! promise! haha! this is soooo much of a reason for people not to watch. kaso lang, it's going to be required for the whole mchs so i have no choice. hay.

so the critic show's tomorrow, and the toughest girl thing will be at its toughest tomorrow. oh my. to whoever got what that meant, swerte mo. to those who didn't get it, kawawa kayo.

i feel sick. argh i have cough and colds pa rin. when will it end?! my voice needs a lot of work since it's quite hard to project (especially when singing) when one's sick. duh!? i know my voice is bad when it's normal, but it's worse when it's acting up!

i dread tomorrow. but like nicki said, tomorrow's always going to be the day you were worrying about yesterday. something of that context. and like kuya macky said in his horror movie trailer, "tingnan mo... buhay ka pa!"

i'll survive. i always dread tomorrow, but i'm still here. so there's actually nothing for me to worry about.

well, except that my costume sucks.

hay! just finished taking a well-deserved bath! hee, i spent more than an hour in the shower! of course, my hair needs a major fix. i don't like na how it looks. it's straight eh. i want soft curls towards the end.

backtrack:

i woke up with cough, colds, and a headache. i couldn't move! when i finally got up, i automatically knew the reason why i was feeling that way. poj set the aircon on high cool and the thermostat of the aircon was on maximum! with such a small room, who wouldn't freeze? ayun, i grabbed my uniform and rushed to a warm room. the clothes felt frozen. twas hard, promise!

class was the usual whatever. oh! ms marilag substituted for ms rama (you all know how went. hehehe.. festival!).. then ms milan filled in for mrs reyes. so, math was a festival and english was perfect. no barok moment. in fact, english was fun! i had a 2-minute impromptu speech. i love impromptu speeches. i love to talk. then kaaliw pa cuz ms milan was laughing with us when we did our usual standing ovations whenever someone recited!

i felt woozy the whole day. i didn't even get to finish the 1st friday mass. went to the clinic to get some rest cuz i was drained and i felt real bad. was worrying about the critic show so i decided to rest.

paid off! the critic show went well! thankfully i didn't forget any lines. and i was able to do choreo (i dunno if i messed up though! yipes!) and my voice didn't crack when i was singing!

some gave good comments. most of them commended the singing part of me and navs. (gawd, sayang tlga i have colds! good thing it wasn't noticed!).. then ms milan said she liked me cuz of the innocence daw and the eye expressions (ako? innocent? please!).. hehe..

sir dennis was there, sir andre was there (he invited himself but slept throughout the play! hehe.. rock on!), then ms windsor, teacher yvette, ms milan, ms cuaderes, sir aris, sir valenton, and sir f of course. then a whole bunch of other people were there too! oh! hi my, joyce and marcee! ayun..

Lord, thanks for letting our hard work pay off! too bad i wasn't able to watch the show. i'll watch it when kriska's cast performs!

today's fulfilling. i have no worries anymore.

happy 2d anniv, cinco! hee! vii-5 02-03! shox, 2 years na since we realized that we're such a great class! haha! no one will ever beat us! no "new yorker in tondo" will be better than ours! if ever "new yorker" wins 1st place again, bet tayo, mga anak natin yung production team!

aika, thanks for the text message! oo naman, i won't leave you!

grandmama, thanks din for the text message! i know we haven't bonded for quite a while now. we have a lot of catching up to do.

THANK YOU FOR TODAY, LORD!

so this is how true happiness feels!

thanks to those who commented! ang labo nyong lahat! wahehe..

sheena: the feeling i get with freaks is happiness. but since i haven't been with freaks for a long time now, i think i sort of forgot the feeling already. so, there.

tippy: ANG CORNY MO! beauty and the best kuh buh? leetol injan ka lang eh! diba noh, butchmates! hehe.. hay, gusto ko ng moka frup! kaya mag-firship tayo sa fair ah!

i went to school at 8am today. supposedly there'd be rehearsal til 12 noon. but then the cast was incomplete so all that took place was a jam session. shets! i still have colds so one could only imagine how my voice sounds when singing! ANG PANGET! PROMISE! kaya nga i can't believe that my singing during yday's critic show was commended. ang panget tlga eh!

banaag fantasized over aladdin (the disney version). shox, he has great abs! oh! and simba's adult voice is sooooo to-die-for! hay.. anyhoo, we sang different disney songs. like if i never knew you, journey to the past, i won't say im in love, zero to hero, a whole new world, reflection, part of your world, etc! hehe.. major belting involved, of course!

realization: it's nice to sing while lying down. stare at the sky and sing that heart out! try it!

after that, i went to mcdo with jow and jelyn. had lunch. headed to national cuz i bought a book (mates, dates and designer divas!). went back to mcdo to meet my classmates. rode with tricia to bianca's place. had a soiree with 2a.

side kwento about mcdo: there was a party last night in mcdo. then when i went to the powder room for a mirror check, someone came in. i thought twas another person lang or something. it was birdy! (the mascot!) hehe.. wala lang.

bianca's place is awesome! great house! haha! there's a grand piano! a table tennis set, a tennis court outside, and their living room consists of 6 Lazy Boys! so there, we freshened up (especially after all i've been through during the day.) and had the soiree!

there were 23 people from ii-6 and 18 people from 2-a. twas okay. carwash was nice. oh! i met bia's brother. wala lang. hi bia! then there were 2 sibolistas. (sibol - ahs theater guild. sabi nila, banaag's counterpart)..

maya played songs on the piano. she did "a thousand miles" and "heaven knows," while i sang. hehe,, solo, of course. the rest of them were eating eh. then one of the sibolistas (dave, i think. sorry!) played "the prayer" while i sang. he was supposed to play "seasons of love" but then we went to the tennis court to play spin the bottle.

realization: feels great to sing when there's a piano! i miss kuya macky playing songs from sideshow and the last 5 years. i dunno. i feel like i'm in heaven when i'm singing and a piano's playing. parang ang ganda ganda ng boses ko kahit hindi naman tlga. gets? aliw eh.

i went home. tired na! i know i'm missing marcee's debut. argh. tito has to pick up my mom and ate phoebe kasi at the airport. so, i wasn't allowed to go.

must get back to bio lab report!

this stage and i, we're inseparable!

go pauline, dream on. anyhoo,

my sister and my mom are finally home! they arrived at around 1am last night. hay, paradise - the smell of new stuff!

i have tops, stuffed toys, and we have a room doorbell now (it's kim possible!)..

kainggit. i want to trick or treat there talaga. my sister got twice as many as i got! grarr! and the ones they gave are irresistible pa! tootsie rolls! dots! lays! kit-kats! oh henrys! yum!

my sister bought me jolly rancher lollipops.. yum! haha! shox, puro food! they bought tons of coffee naman eh to fight the sugar flood!

i like my purple bungee stuffed toy. makes a creepy sound. hehe.. poj's is worse!

of course they came home with lots of stories to tell. plus pix!

good that they're home now! family's complete again!
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okay, spotlight on me now.

my voice is officially ruined! crap! won't be talking much this week. wish me luck! i have to rest my voice cuz our show starts on friday! then we'll have a show on saturday! but i dunno when my cast will perform. kahiya naman if kriska fills in for me due to my lack of voice. oh crap. more days filled with writing.

people, wish me luck! shall stop talking and start taking millions of lozenges.

hope my voice comes back by thursday!

banaag! announcement! tomorrow's the ad layout deadline! you have to give me your ads or else your ad placement payments will go to waste! bleh!

i shall work on the return of my voice now.. again, wish me luck!

crap! i'm done with the bio lab report! yessssssss..

had a rough monday. not exactly the day i was expecting. rough, basta.. shox, i'm having a horrible headache.

monday pa lang? sana end of friday na..

i have playbill work to do pa. i'm tired na eh! ugh! have to scan millions and millions of ads! plus layout!

pagod na ko.

pero promise, my head hurts. must take 2 paracetamols.

PICOY! B.A!! I NEED A PARACETAMOL! hehehe.. footloose days.

good night. useless entry. what the heck.

i'm not yet done layouting the playbill. and the shows are going to start on friday! kasi naman, they gave their ads late na.. grarr. i'm the one pa who has to adjust shempre.

i'm taking time out because i want to REST! (please lang!) okay. so tonight has to be a night of sleep. i must finish early cuz i don't want to be crapped and sleepless tomorrow. TDR and promotion's gonna be tomorrow! grarr..

read an interesting line today:

we do not remember days. we remember moments.

had a weird dream last night. aika, must talk to you. you'll laugh your head off, promise!

happy! my mom bought cadbury crunchies! hehe! for a couple of christmases i've been asking mom to get me violet crumble (the chocolate bar!) and she never found any! then when she got home from canada, she got me the crunchies! haha! it's not violet crumble (i don't know if that still exists!) but it's the same thing din!

funny, during rehearsals i excused myself a couple of times to go to sir f (had the promotion letter and the posters signed.) he was watching the campus idol auditions pala! we (navs, chic and i) went to the speech room and heard this girl singing her heart out, puro flat naman! super out of tune, pumiyok pa. kawawa naman sha. kawawa din yung judges na nagtiis ng ingay niya. siguro kung ako yung nandun, the same thing would have happened. flat-fest na, piyok pa! what could be worse than that?

there's a rubber lizard that my brother brought home. creepy, i tell you.

must get back to layouting. hope i finish. wish me luck!

please answer this. for research purposes..

when do you know when you've crossed the line between being friendly and being flirty?

thanks!

hayy, today's my last day to layout! i won't sleep. dami kasi late ads that were submitted to me eh. hay, filipino time! grarr!

was sabooooooog this morning! sobrang sabog! lost my i.d, banaag promotions, cooking, filipino presentation. was late for t.h.e due to the promotions. when i came to the classroom, my groupmates were in the cooking room na! so i dropped my stuff nalang in the classroom then ran to the cooking room. meily told me not to be sabog.. hehe, thanks. sorry, sabog lang tlga.

funny how bea, peng (happy birthday!) and i promoted. we were like

me: nasaan yung mama ko?!
peng: nakita ko yung mama mo!
me: saan?
peng: nasa tanghalang sinag room! (where the play will take place..)
bea: gusto nyo makita mama nya? nood kayo ng tau-tauhan! (gives details)

cooked mango in beer and choco crinkles in t.h.e today. fun fun! hee! mango in beer was great! oh well, gawa ko eh! hehe,, pero parang nagkulang yung beer. bakit kaya?! hmmm...

filipino presentation was funny! julianne, iba ka!

club time was fun. made the f.o.h board! 2 more bboards to go!

now i shall layout. tama na blog! please!

finally done with the 1st show! shox, tiring! haha!

been anxious and sabog and uber wasted the whole day! buti nalang bumawi nung show na... hindi rin!

scary cuz nina felt dizzy and threw up backstage a couple of times. kat, her alternate, wasn't there cuz she's sick also. hay. i'll pray for them tonight..

i have a million bloopers! my head gear kept on falling kaasar! had no hairpins kasi! then pam dropped her character pa when i made an ad lib!! feeling ko tuloy i was messing up!

want to thank the audience. they were such a good audience! haha! supportive! haha! oh! and thanks to the 2-6 people who watched! yey!

so the play runs til dec.4.. one show's over and there are a lot more to follow! required sha! it's official! required sha! yahoo!

i'm hyper na.. thanks, extra joss!

the speechfest piece has been given out na! will try to study it.

there's a club meeting pa tomorrow. will hang posters and stuff. yipes! then in the afternoon i'll be with my family. oh well..

no classes on monday! woohoo!

tuesday though, there's the bio and social studies long test. so, who's stressed? hello? bio and social studies on the same day!

must retire. oh wait! must make the show skeds!

again, thanks to those who watched the show today! you're all so great! thanks a bunch!

hi banaag! congrats!

hehe,, wala lang. napaka-symbolic nung spelling. feeling ko kasi ang talino ko. libre mangarap!

went to school today. i felt bad - real bad!

we worked on the 2 big bulletin boards. we were supposed to finish by today kaso lang well, out of the 15+ people who were expected to be there, we were only 7. plus 3 of them were band people so they were practicing the whole time. reg left early, jow left at lunch time, so jelyn and i were the only ones there til 3pm.

it feels bad that not a single freshman was there! to think they're the ones who are expected to do the dirty work. ewan ko na lang if they pass the deliberations. na-hurt ako eh!

ayan tuloy! we finished only 1 bboard! it's not even completely done! if only they came, natapos sana lahat ng work. no worries na next week. all would've been set come the regular shows.

good side though, jelyn and i had an intelligent conversation. from the lack of discipline of certain people in the club, to the lack of discipline of filipinos in general. then some thoughts on life, love and crap. interesting, really.

ayun, thanks, jelyn!

and thanks for the tag, maya! hehe,, join banaag na kasi! haha! and to those who greeted me in ym, thanks!

my mind's a total blank.. i think.. hmm.. let's check:

today's a monday and thank the muslims for ramadan or else today would be another regular boring jaded wasted crappy monday like all the other mondays when we have to deal with school!

it's still the same crap though, cuz there's biology and social studies long tests tomorrow.. GRARR!! i don't want to study! ack! that's why i'll play the sims 2 and go online today, and worry about school tonight. call me a procrastinator, i don't care. i hate school THAT much! *explodes*

*regains composition*

just finished reading teacher rony's blog. he had a thing at the ccp last saturday.. twas an open mic thing. it seemed real nice! congrats, teacher rony! oh! oh! they should hold open mics more often. para the next time it happens, i could go! hehe..

i also saw sheena's blog and well, she got some of my pics. the mtg pics. that was the yearbook pic when the teens clump and the not-anymore-teens-but-still-young! clump were still divided. again, we're one now! and sure enough, i soooooooo miss sideshow days. not the play, but the people in it. EVIL! haha! seriously, i miss sideshow people.

to mtg! to everyone: how does summer 2005 sound? i'll still be there! let's form the class na!

*back to reality*

i need a hero! i'm so stressed! i need the gift of peace of mind.

i want to go christmas shopping for my friends! i want a total shopping spree! any sponsors?

*stress pa rin eh!*

shows shall run from nov. 23 til dec.4.. 2-3 shows everyday, mondays til saturdays.. stress nga naman! 11 shows all in all for every cast! stressful! now it's not that much of a good thing that the play's required. kaso lang, required na sha eh! well, at least there's a feel-good moment when everyone will have projects related to the play and i'll be exempted!

*that was the future, now to the past*

yesterday i went to my dad's house. he wasn't there though.. then tita cynthia, my sister and i went to loyola grand villas to work on the house of don cuaresma (he's a director in abscbn and my aunt's working on the interior design of his place..).. we put neat lamps and pillows and he has a cool bed! hehe.. we didn't finish though so they're going back there today (without us! )..

then we went to abscbn cuz my aunt checked out how she did in the interior design of the 3d floor. the editing rooms have this reception area. ang labo! haha! but it's nice! super!

went around the elj building din.. wla lang. oh! they have this nice chameleon-colored floor on one part of the area! ang aliw! haha!

kainis lang cuz the people in starbucks was infested by people wearing red (most prob they watched fanatic).. then this one girl was singing her heart out pa! irritating! obviously, she wanted to be discovered. BLECH! as if that'd ever happen! eh there's a surplus of celebrities na nga eh! hehe,,, i'm evil!

anyhoo, pretty much my weekend. boring but oh well!

school na naman bukas. grar.

wait lang. so, is my mind really a blank?

right now i feel nothing. i dunno why..

a lot transpired today.

went to school, shortened periods! then we had 2 periods of t.h.e (we had nothing to do pa nga eh! que fun!) then english, we talked about the speechfest (ngayon ko lang nalaman that i'm the prod manager cuz the whole time they were appointing people, i was talking to kat!)..

we had a quiz in math. que panget! que boring!

then came filipino. we had a jam session with no instruments. whatever song prevails, we'd all sing it.. then our teacher told me to sit beside her and sing "my immortal" but i didn't know the lyrics (cuz i'm not into pop.. broadway rules! showtunes rule!) so i sang "for good" instead. of course, no one else knew the song. hehe.. my kind of music is different from everyone else's.. some people crave for rock, some pop, r&b, take your pick. showtunes are MINE! bahala kayo! you're missing out on a lot!

lunch time i was in the tanghalang sinag room.. was supposed to make bboards but no one was there except the band so i listened to the band instead. galing! they're performing tomorrow at the free show. 3pm.. *hint! hint!* then anamae, gaye and niña came and ayun, chat galore! then anamae took a pic of us! hee! yey! i have another pic to add to the miles and piles of pics of me! yipee!

i did nothing in the afternoon. i ate like a patay-gutom in the classroom. sarap the ones group b cooked! hehe.. and dynsel's creampuffs are to die for! hehe,, indulge now, gain weight later. hay.

then i went home after bonding with tal, ia and jelyn. hehe.. banaag tlga.. we stick together! oi, jow and jelyn, bukas ah! jussell,, abby, you might want to join!

oh! and to mia and niña! thanks for the testimonials!

i'm soooo right! lollipops DO tend to take away depression! ang galing eh! try it!

haven't blogged for a couple of days cuz of the fair! yipes! here's an update..

thursday:
feef's bday! (love you, fifi!) then the opening day of the fair! twasn't as fun as other fairs, but i survived. the first shift was mine and it was scorching hot! i soooo got myself sunburned! oh! plus i got caught for the marriage booth pa! yipes! then at night we watched campus idol, and tiff won! but titit did so well! hands down!

friday:
went to mcdo at around 7am! hehe! had coffee and a hashbrown and told myself that i'll be waiting for my classmates to get there as i browsed through the books i haven't read yet. then a couple of people came, we ate, and went to school. some took the trike, while kim, zoo, claire, dandan, miko and i walked to school. quite far, but i needed to burn all that i ate so i gave it a go. at night i watched encaenia, a concert, which finished at 2:30 am. i went home at 12 so obviously, i didn't finish it. spongecola was there, out of the box, 17:28, cambio, ciudad, and a bunch of other bands. twas nice, but not really that enjoyable. well, ayos lang..

saturday:
by yesterday i was really jaded and so i went to school after lunch. actually i was supposed to go there early but then grandmama rigor called up to ask for notes on their upcoming dramafest (her actors memorized everything but then everything they act out looks scripted daw.. que yuck!) and then we had to catch up on some things. ayun! left the house and went to school, and spent the day there. at 5pm we went to laura's place cuz she celebrated her birthday! (happy birthday laura!) oooh! there was a cute lil baby and a cute lil shitzu puppy! baby heaven! haha! and then the food was great! oh yeah oh yeah! then we bonded and i got to meet some blue batch people! they taught me to eat buko jelly! tama! then after that pam, lebs, mia, tine, and i went to school for another concert. but tine didn't want to go na and mia was sick so pam, lebs and i went up. ayun, ended up wasted, and jow brought me home. thanks jow!

so now i'm wasted. plus there's schoolwork to do. nakakatamad but oh well.

all in all, i've been caught for the jail booth 6 times, but i went in twice, pleaded for mercy twice, and bailed once. all those who caught me were calling me by the name of my character in the required play. also the one who caught me for marriage called me by that name! whatta!

also, i'm discolored! it's like i have sleeves when i'm wearing sleeveless shirts! oh sunburns!

for now i shall kiss the day cuz it seems perfect and i hope it goes perfect. will be staying at home cuz i'm super tired pa!

show starts on tuesday. wish me luck!

there's gonna be school again tomorrow. i hate going to school. ay wait! it's our recollection pala tomorrow so i basically have time to bum today. thank God there's the Sims 2!

oh my gosh! almost forgot! it's the first show tomorrow! sections i-1 to i-4 will be watching! and it's going to be my cast on the first show! stressful!

on wednesday it'll be our cloze test (hay! please! batchmates! NOT CLOSE, NOT CLOSED! it's CLOZE!!) on the piece for the speechfest. i have this whole poem to memorize by wednesday. like, not liking it! shouldn't banaagers be exempted from the speechfest or any school requirement that deals with acting or speaking in front of people or shit related to that shit?

isn't it unfair that sports clubs and dance clubs are exempted from p.e. class, plus the glee club and the rondalla club are exempted from music class? then all the rewards of banaag are exemptions in requirements regarding major plays. wala lang, stressful..

we should be exempted. we rehearse at 3pm til 6pm every single day. we produce 4 plays each year making us attend 3pm-6pm rehearsals everyday for the whole year. it's kainis how there are clubs that are exempted and yet they don't even have to train the whole year. we even have two weeks of summer workshops during summer vacation! tapos walang benefits?

wala na nga kaming talent fee eh..

all the ranting i did was useless. even if i feel that way, i still won't leave banaag. that's for sure..

pero unfair talaga.

i'm so tamad!

steph: sorry, what about the cloze thing? hehe, wala lang, i kept on hearing "close" and "closed" during the past week kaya ayun.. haha!

BLOG!

just when i thought everything won't be in its place tomorrow, i receive a text message from nicki (our stage manager):

"guys! kriska can't make it to the show tomorrow so the other cast will perform twice!"

in case you don't know, kriska's my alternate. nice.

so tomorrow's our recollection (i'm not asking for palancas, i swear. cuz if i ask for palancas, come the recollections of others, i'd feel obliged to give out palancas. maawa naman kayo! stressed na nga eh!)

i don't like people who make you palancas para sumbatan kayo kapag recollection na nila. they're like, "make me a palanca ah! ginawan kita eh!" go ahead, rub it in, manhid ako okay? pfft.

hehe, i'm the one making myself stressed.

recollection, check.
2 shows, faint.
5 packs of extra joss in bag, check.

wish me survival, not luck.. learned that from ate joy. thanks ate joy! super miss you!

*thud*
pauline falls on the floor, unconscious. stress kasi eh!

twas our recollection today. i was kinda hyper but i managed to save energy.. thanks, Lord!

some cried and all, like the usual. ayun.

sorry i'm going nowhere. not studying seems so much fun (fair then reco) and it depresses me to know that tomorrow it'll be back to academic crap. hay. ouch noh?

after the reco, i went to the tanghalang sinag room to get ready for the two shows. so, who's drained?

good thing i had 2 sachets of extra joss today. it shall keep me alive. oh shox! i forgot to buy more boxes of extra joss today! grarr!

the first show was not very nice. maybe we were re-adjusting because we didn't rehearse last week. plus the audience was quite noisy so i dunno. ang off ng feeling.

the next show was a bit better. unfortunately though, my right foot got splintered. youch! but twas better. hehe..

gosh i'm so drained! and this entry is soooooo going nowhere! i just got home (time check:8:04pm) and i'm super major over mega drained!

anyhoo, before i go, wana wish gabriela pangilinan a soooper happy birthday! you'll always be the best dolly dimples! hehe.. love you, gab!

today was yet again another normal day. at the same time, today's been filled with surprises. therefore it ain't normal anymore.

school wasn't much of a heavy load today. swear, i didn't get tired. i was sleepy the whole day though..

i performed during the second show today. tomorrow, i'll perform on the first show. i'll be watched by ii-2 and ii-3.. oh syet! then kriska will perform for ii-4 and ii-5.. hayyy..

we don't know yet which cast will perform when on saturday.. MORNING! (cuz we want the afternoon off.. i mean, who'd want to stay the whole day in school on a saturday?) all i know is, we have 3 shows on saturday, and i'll perform twice. talk about bangag! hehe,, bangag about banaag.. anlabo..

for some weird reason i feel elated. extra joss might still be working.

speaking of extra joss, i finished na my extra joss stock! must buy another ton by tomorrow.. for now i guess i have to rely on the stored energy i still have. sana talaga meron pa. wait, does pepsi energy cola work? gawd i'm getting desperate!

i'm thankful today cuz issa lent me her copy of "angus, thongs and full frontal snogging".. must read it agad!

i'm ready for bed. super tired na!

i had a show yesterday and 2 shows today. super wasted na ko!

yesterday i performed for ii-2 and ii-3.. twas okay. i mean, just like any other show. today i performed for iv-1 and iv-3, then iii-2 and iii-7.. i must say the first show was better cuz we messed up in the whole-cast-choreo part during the second show.

amazing pa, the "real" ana fe aguila (mafe's sister!) watched today (she's from iv-3.. and the name of the lead is well, her name in an animal form! haha!).. ana mae played my mom cuz she was late for the 1st show. ayun, wala lang. super funny cuz wenever we mentioned ana fe's name, everyone would laugh.. ang aliw!

i can't believe i was able to do the shows today. i came home at midnight already last night! then i had to wake up early cuz call time was at 7am! hehe,, i reached school at 7:45. unprofessional, but better late than never, right?

today i had 2 shows, then i went to mcdo with ia, then she dropped me off at ateneo, i roamed (loitered would be a better term) while waiting for my family cuz it's poj's 1st communion thing. then had dinner, and went home cuz i realized that i'm super wasted na.

i'm so happy that there's no school on monday. there's gonna be no show! then it's our last week na! then open shows na!

PAT ASUNCION! TAKE A LOOK!
dec. 3, 5-6pm
dec. 4, 830-930am
1000-1100am
1130-1230pm

anyhoo, i shall take a look at my bed, then sleep on it. tama! my gosh, it's going to be my 1st long sleep for this week!

but before i sleep, i want to give ate joy a shoutout! happy birthday! i love you!

tulog na nga!

i just finished watching monsters inc. on disney channel. gosh, the movie never fails to make me cry.. galing eh!

"i wouldn't have nothing if i didn't have you!".. totoo yan! to all my friends, footlosers, freaks, cinco, trese, ii-6, banaag, knollers, and of course to the paulinians, to my family, to my enemies, to everyone who became, who are, and who will become part of me, thanks for making me who i am!

let's drift from that whole friendship thing. ayan na naman ako eh! but what can i do? i can't help it! i have the best set of friends!

anyhoo, i awoke at 10 am today. had the longest, most peaceful sleep this week. ang sarap! 12 hours of sleep after a very tiring week. hay..

oh! to all those who know godzilla (my doggie), he had his hair cut! oh! not just cut! he's bald! imagine a bald shitzu dog! yaya told me that a huge number of neighbors approached them this week, and they were looking for our dog. i'd love to tell them that it's right in front of them, but i'm pretty sure they won't believe.

anak ng pedigree.

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i'm going to have persuasive speaking for english.. my topic is on homosexual marriages.. my side? neutral. whichever side is assigned to me, i shall take..

i thought of advantages if ever same sex marriages would be legalized/accepted by society/whatever. what i thought of is that there are bigger chances of being of help to the abandoned. a homosexual couple may have sex but they won't be capable of bringing another life in our overpopulated world. therefore, they help in a couple of ways. they could adopt a child and lighten the loads of orphanages, they lessen the number of orphans, they help prevent overpopulation, they help prevent shortages in terms of resources (since we're running out of stuff), they lessen financial issues (more babies means more mouths to feed means more money to spend means financial crises).. hindi ka na nga gumawa ng isa pang nilalalang, nakatulong ka pa sa bahay ampunan, tapos nakatulong ka din dun sa batang inampon mo!

hehe.. radical ang pag-iisip. pagbigyan..

guys, please answer this.. i need it for our persuasive speech in english!

*are you for or against homosexual marriages? why?

do you think homosexual marriages should be legalized? why?

what exactly are the advantages of loving/living with/being with someone with the same sex as yours?

what are the disadvantages?*

just click on the comment link below and post your answers. thanks!

it's so freezing cold! i mean, it's raining and it's the christmas season and when they jive, hala na! basta main point is, it's cold! kawawa naman si godzilla. he must be feeling horrible. must check on him..

i did nothing today except play the sims 2. VERY addicting!

tomorrow there shall be no school. umuulan naman eh! and since katipunan is prone to flood now.. yun!

hi! qc mayor! mc president? ateneo president? you might want to take a look at the situation now. umuulan oh! kawawa naman ako!

i'm currently printing a 10-page research on homosexual marriages. guys, please take note of my sticky entry. please please please?! answer nyo naman oh!

i'm going back to sims 2. stress mag-isip about school..