a mind is very private..

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i stand corrected.. the PLAYER i was talking about in my previous entry.. read na lang the comment of lap.. haha! anyways! here's another booboo from him!

PLAYER: (rides a cab.. talks to driver) manong, sa TAP tayo!
driver: saan po?
PLAYER: sa TAP! sa TAP!

crap.. he meant TAFT! nakakaiyak!
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i woke up this morning thinking it was saturday. but then as i saw yaya waking up poj, i realized it's only friday. i cried.

school's really a burden - a huge one at that.. galing nya eh! eats you up and leaves you without any time to have a wink of sleep. it really buries you alive.

good thing the post-quiz on the book report in english had a multiple choice part or else i'm toast!

anyhoo, i got picked up at 4pm today, which i think is a good thing. we had a practical test in music class (ugh! singing! hay, my biggest frustration!) and got dismissed earlier than everyone else.

i'm thankful that hell week's over.. but of course i think next week will be even bloodier than this week. regular class on monday (giving out of bio long test results, review review review in all subjects..) and half day on tuesday (review some more, submission of filipino reaction paper).. then exams!

i'll kiss tomorrow like there's no tomorrow! haha! wala lang.. i'm finishing some books before i hit school books to prepare for exams.. i really don't want to study! ugh!

it feels good to be home on a friday night. especially after hell week. i just want to sleep and fly around in dreamland! woohoo!

hell week is over
and hell week is gone
hell week's decided it's time to move on..
...and i'm not hurting (anymore! woohoo!)

oh! before i go, i just want to leave a few messages to some people!

sev, happy birthday, dear childhood best friend! i miss you so much! i'm still here if you want to chat or whatever.. and i'm still okay with until-3am phone conversations! i love you so much! i'm still here!

ate binky, happy birthday! hope you're all good! i miss you so much! you should be there in the next freak reunion! i'm here for you! love you!

janine! happy birthday! know what, school's hell without you and all the others! i miss bonding moments at dismissal time! i miss you and pat and jac and teruel and anne and kiko and mgal! we have to reunite, i swear! anyhoo, i love you!

michelle, happy birthday! i really feel bad about not being able to go to your debut. ugh, if exams didn't get in the way.. thanks for putting up with me! keep singing! haha! i look forward to spending more playshop summers with you! freak on! i love you!

anyhoo, i want to hit the sheets and read a good book (good meaning DEFINITELY NOT THE ENGLISH BOOK REPORT!)..

good night! and remember, hell week's over.. but ONLY FOR NOW! just like george bush and your hair!

i've moved..

to another pc cuz the pc in the living room ain't going to a single site! ugh! so now i'm stuck with this pc in poj's room, with this regular-sized dark monitor.. aww.. i'll miss the big monitor! so that pc has to function well soon!

inna, ANG CORNY!! PROMISE!! haha! hay, been having my own share of corny jokes lately.. deadly, diba?! haha!

kuya macky, b.a, gab: i saw a caterpillar the other day, i couldn't help but laugh to death cuz i remembered all the caterpillar jokes we shared last week! ang corny!

i ym-ed ms rigor and sheena tonight.. ms rigor about the dramafest (she's thinking of doing "the dancers",, ah, i like! she also asks me for techniques every year but i'm no pro.. i suck! and she's looking for someone who could give workshops! any volunteers? ) and sheena about missing michelle's debut together..

happy birthday, michelle! i love you!

i saw something in teacher rony's blog which i found quite amusing.. it's called "final exams from hell".. shit. now i feel guilty cuz i haven't studied yet.. hmph.. anyhoo, you guys should check it out! makes me thankful my exams aren't THAT hard..

oh! lookie what i found in ate joy's blog, which sheena copied. i also saw this in ate kyla's blog.


"Rent"


Which Broadway Musical Are You?
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people relate to me? nah.. freaks do! haha!

oh, i'm consoling myself with sugar free ice cream (yes, sugar free.. must avoid sugar to lose weight!) as i mourn not being able to go to michelle's debut.. if only exams weren't created.. who created exams anyways? ugh..

now i shall read a good book while poj takes over the pc.. this is his room after all.. sigh..

good night!

this is so freaky!

remember the friendship entry i wrote the other day? well, i found one of my "friends-when-i-was-in-diapers" just recently in friendster! and to add to that, it's only know that we found out that we're studying in the same school! hay, what 10+ years can do!

anyhoo, b.a, thanks for the testimonial! haha! you're right.. i'm the one who cries the most when watching kuya macky's videos.. especially the ones equipped with a super nice song that'd just drive me insane and would leave me needing a truck of facial tissue just so i could wipe the tears off my face! hay, that scoreboard is looooong overdue!

oh! and teacher rony.. whoops, uh, rony (will take time.. i'm soooo used to the whole "teacher" thing!), if i enjoy the exams, no one's going to hate it anymore.. ever! haha! i'm the biggest school-hater (biggest in terms of size, that is!) who ever walked the planet! hay.

i didn't get to see our video for michelle! ugh! wasn't able to check if i looked super fat! haha! and i didn't get to cry cuz i didn't see it! kuya macky! your scoreboaaaard!

so now i'm blogging when i'm supposed to do some "studying".. yes, the reaction paper and the reflection paper will have to wait.. this pc doesn't have a printer (actually, it's just not connected to the pc and i'm too lazy to do such a simple task..) and the other pc is in use.. ah, i'm so good!

school was light today, cuz hell week's passed and i'm happy happy happy! but then on wednesday it's doomsday again.. hmmmm.. what subject to flunk? haha! all? kidding! oo na sige na, i'll study.. tomorrow..

i was quiet in class today.. reading a book, sleeping, you name it.. it's weird cuz i didn't recite even just once today.. unbecoming of me! haha!

i have a thought that kept me feeling weird the whole day.. i still don't know why cowboys ride horses.. ugh..

i feel so odd today! like i'm sooooo different.. like i'm a freak.. i feel like lilo (could be stitch too)..

been playing the sims all day! good thing i have it in my phone now! ah! i love my phone quite well.. *sings* ...i will never leave youuuuuu...

i'm braindead.. i need inspiration.. i need things to think of.. i need to think but not school-think.. i want trivial stuff to give my brain a feast..

my song of the moment is not quite connected to my current mood..

okay, so i haven't slept for quite a while. yesterday was the first time i stayed up all night just to study for an exam.. shit, i'm not used to studying! so yes, i usually get mediocre grades cuz i don't study. i know it's my fault, but i just am not in the mood..

for the past couple of days i have been sleeping whenever i'm home. like from school, then i take a bath, and off i go to dreamland. nice experience, i tell you.. it's like hibernation period, only you have to wake up once in a while for a couple of hours at school. i love to sleep. i want to do it often..

i'm not allowed to go online, but i want to.. this morning nga i was so stupid! i had a conversation with my mom on the way to school.. went like this..
me: ma, michelle's coming home in december daw.. (michelle's my cousin who lives in canada.. kind of reminds me of an avenue q song!)
mom: ah, yeah! i think they'll be here on the 23rd..
me: she told me they're arriving on the 21st..
mom: really? you were able to catch her online?
me: yup.. oh shit!

hehe, i was so busted! haha! oh well!

tomorrow's the math and filipino exam.. i'm tired from bio so i took time out.. i'll study later (yes, pigs still fly! uh huh! uh huh!)..

i want to watch the tigger movie again later.. hay, cryfest! haha! oh! i know! i'll cryfest later! wala lang.. i haven't had a good cry for quite a while. last time was when i was in kuya macky's place when we did michelle's video.. hay, freaks, i miss you!

i feel sleepy.. yipee! i won't fail hibernation class anymore! well, at least there's one thing i'm good at! hee!

forgive, i'm sabog. promise, tomorrow, when exams are done, i'll be back on track! but then again after exams there'd be rehearsal from 2pm-6pm.. i'll be needing a pillow when i'm not the one asked to rehearse!

i'll kiss this afternoon and sleep sleep sleep! yipee! i'm breaking free! i'm defying gravity!

speaking of free, another song entered my head..

heaven helps the man who fights his fear
we can face it down, right now, right here!
maybe we can finally right this wrong
arm in arm and side by side we're strong!
AND FREE!

haha! told you i'm sabog!

hay, i feel like everything i do is pointless. i'm not geared towards anything. maybe that's why i don't exert any effort in the stuff i do. i need motivation.

exams are over and i'm definitely not sad that it's over. maybe it's true. exams DO come from hell!

i got an offline ym from kuya macky and it made me smile! freaks are missed.

so it's final. my sister and my mom will be out for 2 weeks. they'll go to canada. shit! i won't go cuz there's school and my sister's gonna be on sem break by then. they went to the us embassy today to grab us visas (they'll stop at us first before heading to canada). funny, my sister told me that south border was there too! guess they're having a show. when they went for the interview daw, the consuls asked them to sing, and they sang an a capella of rainbow. que nice!

today's been quite an adventure. twice have i been almost given an offense. during the math exam, i felt someone touch my right hand. and as i looked up, i saw mrs reyes warning me about my nails. i just smiled a "not now, i'm still answering the math test, thank you very much." smile and continued answering.

then after exams i went to katipunan for lunch. what was a girl supposed to do from 11am til 2pm? there were 4 of us who wanted to eat, and we didn't know what to eat. in the end we ate in the classic mcdo! hay! haha! then we went to beauty bar and i bought nail polish, and went to national where i bought a new book.

we headed back to school for rehearsal. shit, the guards almost gave us an offense! so we went in through the grade school gate and made palusot to the guards there. brilliant!

anyhoo, i'm bored! ack! i shall go back to listening to the best songs ever written. speaking of songs, i let a friend listen to "for good" today. i need someone to sing that for me. i need the assurance that i've touched at least one person's life. yes, quite selfish of me, but i really feel insignificant! like people would only call on me if they need something from me. when they want to have fun they spend time with someone else. i'm like a wallflower. unapproached, unnoticed, insignificant. well, at least it's how i feel. hay, ewan. not much of a good feeling, i tell you.

i'm tired enough to give myself a bonk on the head and get my daily dose of the sims (the one on my phone. i miss the one on the pc though). i need to sleep tonight and prepare for another tiring day tomorrow at school! rehearsal's gonna be from 8am-3pm! groan..

see? i'm needed at rehearsal, therefore i should be there. i do nothing when i'm not needed, thus making me feel insignificant. or maybe worse, unwanted.

i'm so paranoid!

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A	Appreciative
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L	Loving
I	Influential
N	Naughty
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i agree. especially with P and L and I and N..

last night my sister and i were watching t.v in mom's room. we were so absorbed with what we were watching when we suddenly noticed the lights blinking. no one spoke. i thought we'd lose electricity. i thought "oh shit! what am i going to watch!?" but then i also thought, "did a ghost just pass by? oooh! i want to see a ghost!"

then i heard the phone ring and thought that it was such a great disturbance cuz i was watching t.v. i didn't answer it. my brother rushed into my mom's room and said, "did you feel it? mama said there was an earthquake!"

what the heck?! then my sister saw an entire news program about the earthquake that WE DIDN'T EVEN FEEL! to think our house is near the fault lines! there was an earthquake and all i thought of were television and ghosts! ack! so apathetic of me! haha!

anyhoo, rehearsals were loooong today. kriska was the one rehearsed though. all i did was learn the new song and a few choreo. but still it was tiring. duh?! singing and choreo! frustrations in life!

then navs and i were listening to this cd. then we were mini-concerting outside, wailing to every song, belting every note. bloody! haha! you should have been there to laugh at me!

i shall now lay in bed and get some rest. i'm tired!

it's my sister's 19th birthday today! she's so old yet so young! so young cuz we always go through instances involving AGE! like,

in movie theaters:
front-of-house people: miss, 13 na po ba kayo? pg13 po yung movie. (to think my sister is 18 years old!)

FAMILY REUNIONS:
never-before-seen relatives: oh! these are stella's children! who's older, you? (POINTING AT ME! ACK!)

in car repair shops:
technicians: sino sa inyo yung nagddrive? (my sister says she's the one who drives and the people stare in disbelief)

when she was in grade seven:
busmate: excuse me, grade four ka na ba? (hi nikka!)

when she's driving, people look at her as if she's doing something illegal, say, driving without a license?

again, in family reunions:
long-lost relatives: (to my sister) ah! so 4th year high school ka na! (to me) ikaw naman, college? anung year? (uhm, grade seven pa lang po ako nun!)

point being, she looks a LOT younger than me! she even needs to show her driver's license in PG13 movies just so she'd get in!

but still, i know she's older nd much wiser than me.. but i look up to her.. kahit magka-height lang kami! magic, noh?

thanks for showering me with endless kwentos to the point that i send myself to sleep!

thanks for telling me that i'm fat and i need to diet. dont' worry, magiging mas mapayat na ko sayo, pero tandaan mo, flat-chested ka pa rin! wehehe..

thanks for bringing me and poj to school everyday! chka i congratulate you now that your car has a t.v so you won't complain anymore if i finish with rehearsals at 6pm!

happy birthday to the older sister who looks much much younger, and is much much much much much thinner than me!

drink cherifer so you'll be tall!

and mind you, i didn't have any trouble looking for a pic. you have millions taken everyday!

ugh! i have colds! and i had a rough day at school today.

homeroom time was horrible, made me soooooper sleepy! plus, our teacher's just, oh! nevermind!

english time, SUPER BAD TRIP! cuz well, exam results were given out, and well, the whole MONDAY MORNING atmosphere is just so gross!

anyhoo, we have math and bio homework today. like, it's the 1st day of the third quarter and here we are, piled with homework again! so, the only stress-free weekend i had was last weekend. from now on, back to stressful days! HOLY CAMOTE!! i know i'm such a whiner, but what can i do? i don't want to do homework! i want to sleep cuz i'm tired!

rehearsals went quite well.. shit, nina was great! anyhoo, i had a hard time singing though cuz i have the sniffles. swear, piles of tissue will flood the classroom tomorrow.

sana friday na..

i'm sleepy! hay, it really was a rough day, and i'm definitely not wishing for a rough night..

this is one of the many times when i need to sleep all day and relax and worry about nothing. hay, i hope that day comes.

promise, inaantok na ko..

good night na nga! *kiss*

today was scary! haha! more of exciting than boring. weird, basta.

i'm currently experiencing writer's block. oh no! seriously, i can't seem to find anything sensible to write, but i just have to write cuz this blog is a habit.

i don't think anything special happened today. i got to spend time with my sister and her friends though. after rehearsal, we went to a friend's place and watched a bunch of movies, talked and well, talked over some grub.

oh! crap, i'm not sure if i'll make it to the spcp fair. by then kasi my mom and my sister are gonna be in canada. i don't even know how to survive without them. only poj, tito, and i will be here at home. and the three of us are the messy ones who really don't care about order. so, there goes the cleanliness of the house! good thing the maids are here to clean up after us. but still. oh well. but, i'll try to go on the 23rd. friends, pray!

i can't focus on schoolwork. a lot of things just get in the way. rehearsals, making minus one audio files from originals (learned yesterday! i'm sooo ready to play with it!) and my newfound fascination for books. ironically, i was the first one in class who learned to read in pre-school, but i didn't read many books. going back, it's really hard when you want to do a lot of things all at the same time. but as kuya macky puts it, i am the multitasking queen. i shall meet the demands that come along with the title!

what made me happy today was the fact that we have to come up with a persuasive speech. i love debating and making people believe in my stand. heck, i love talking. whenever we get extemporaneous speeches, i always exceed the time limit. that's one reason why i get low. points are deducted whenever i exceed. ugh! anyhoo, achay, i miss debating with you! and to whoever reads this paragraph, i don't care if you think i'm such a geek. i love to broadcast tidbits of my life. wala ka nang paki dun!

what made me HAPPIER was a text convo with aika. i haven't talked to her in ages! and i super miss her already! ayun, she texts once in a blue moon. pretty much like Jay in No Boyfriend Since Birth. when you text, she doesn't reply. then she texts out of the blue. anyhoo, hay, girl, we have to talk as in talk. bond-talk. i have lots to tell. and yes, you should be alarmed.

i'm hit enough to sleep now that i've come up with a post. i still want to come up with a contemplative post though. but not now.

i'm using the computer in the computer lab at school. we're having class and i'm BORED! cuz i'm done na with the stuff we have to do..

i didn't update last night cuz there was this bug in our pc. it automatically shits - er, shuts down. it has a countdown thingy before it shuts down. like what happened to ate joy's pc a couple of months ago. argh!

anyhoo, rehearsals went quite well yesterday! it was super cold in our room cuz the new aircon was there. and i had no jacket that time so i was freezing!

i was on a PMS stage yesterday. when we cooked in the cooking room, i felt a heavy load of negative energy circulating. tippy and meily and i were in a super bad trip feel all through the day. then we found out we were PMS-ing. well, in our case, P stands for POST. hmmm..

i have 10 pics of me and meily. we took them yesterday and they're in my phone now. must open a photobucket account!

anyhoo, i'll update later. lapit na mag-bell eh.. oh well.. sana the main pc at home gets fixed na today..

when one feels dizzy, he sees stars..

i'm not only seeing the stars, but the moon as well..

crap, i dunno what i just said. but the reason for the title is well, cuz it's the title of the song i'm listening to. great song! it's from songs for a new world.. jason robert brown's a genius. i look up to him.

enough music hooplah (more to follow. sheer irony)..

thanks for the tip, b.a.. the main pc at home is officially fixed!

been through quite a rough week. maybe the only weekend i enjoyed was last weekend. exams ended, had rehearsal, and had a homework-free sunday. but then when the weekdays came, we're jammed with homework again. ugh!

i'm soooooooper major tired! i can't move my legs. hay, i need to rest, but my sister wants me to use the computer so she can rest. ayos lang naman for me. at least when i rest, tuloy-tuloy na til the morning. which reminds me, i have to wake up at 6am tomorrow cuz we have rehearsals from 8am-3pm! i'm tired of choreo! i'm tired of rough runs, but i want to do the show (which hopefully will be required for the whole high school!) and do what (i think) i do best! tssss...

we had our interaction with 2L today. ANYWAYS,

i'm super sleepy and tired and stressed! i have TONS of homework to do this weekend! to think i have whole-day rehearsals tomorrow! call me lazy but i'm sick of it all! i mean, planner space for today and tomorrow got filled to the last millimeter cuz of homework needed for monday, the BULK of it being C.L homework. seriously, nakakatamad! ugh!

i just want to buy a good book and read. i don't need homework. like guada said, studying is not my life. i shouldn't be burdened by it. but, oh well, guess it sucks to be me..

all i have to do now is wait for a miracle for me to finally get to sleep. i'll need a box of extra joss tomorrow to last me til the afternoon.

good night. i'll be going through a rough night tonight. wish me luck.

*sings* finally i'm home!

hay! been through a super rough day!

we had rehearsals from 8am-3pm. it wasn't organized though cuz some of the banaagers went to the audition for the fashion show.

ugh! the high school building was so congested! there were people everywhere! everyone wanted to audition. yung tipong dressed to kill! then practicing their way of walking EVERYWHERE! (like, you walk everyday.. why practice? i don't get it.. well, yeah i do but, i dunno).. while there i was, with my drama club jacket on, and comfy black pants. while they're dressed to kill, i was dressed to do dirty work. dressed to make props, dressed to rehearse, dressed to sing with the piano, name it.

after rehearsal i went to starbucks and had coffee (DUH?!) while reading a good book. ah, coffee and books sure are the perfect pair!

my mom came and we left for libis to play badminton for two hours. 6-8pm. imagine, i come from a draining 8am-3pm rehearsal and there i was, playing badminton. just perfect. by the way, i saw tanya before playing badminton. blooming! haha! i miss her, and the rest of my paulinian batchmates!

it's 10:40 now and i'm here at home, still waiting for me to finish this blog entry, reply to a couple of blog entries, and do homework till dawn. why do homework till dawn on a saturday night? so that i can sleep continuously and wake up with no worries come tomorrow. i'm waiting for a day to bum. shit, that day would be soooo heavenly!

hay! PAULINE! DEFY GRAVITY! well, i will defy gravity.. SOON..

i'm in the mood to do everything now so that i can bum later..

shall go.. good night. er, sleep tight?

I'M DIZZY AND TIRED AND READY TO HIT THE SHEETS BUT I HAVEN'T DONE HOMEWORK YET CUZ I CAME HOME LATE!

and that's the whole thing i have to blog today. thank you..

NOT!

been an awful sunday and monday. i wasn't able to go online cuz the phone won't work. ARGH!

school's such a bore. i can't believe it's only tuesday! argh that THE and Bio and Math homework!

anyhoo, rehearsal was weird today. a lot of negative energy filled the air. almost everyone was hot-headed.

after rehearsal, i went to st luke's (yes, the hospital).. now it's 10pm and i haven't been home for an hour. i got home at 9:30-ish.. argh..

been a tiring two days. last night was my mom's birthday so obviously i spent last night lurking in eastwood.. and now my mom and my sister are on their way to canada! without me and poj! they'll be out for 18 days so it's me and poj and tito and the maids here at home! nice.. hay, what sembreaks could bring. i wish i had one of those sembreaks.

i've been thinking a lot today.. more on the usual "reflecting".. i had the drive to write, but i lost it knowing that it's quite late already and i'm not yet done with homework..

so you see? i'm twisted. i don't know what to do first, my priorities aren't set, and it's just plain sabog..

it's 10:32 in the computer clock. i have no plans of putting myself to sleep.

i want to think..

had the most interesting conversation with aika. spent 33 minutes talking via celphone (yes, the usual..) and roughly an hour via landline..

talked about a lot of stuff! the upcoming spcp fair, the usual past-present-future then being single, having a dead love life, and of course, relationships.. crap. relationships na naman.. oh well..

a lot of realizations came to me upon having that convo.. things change, people change.. there are things we can still openly talk about, and things which are to be kept within our own worlds. before we were open about EVERYTHING! now there are limits. sad but true. but like i said, it's part of the package. not being with her everyday for nearly two years now, i'm not surprised that it turned out like this. it's my fault.. i left.. hay, consequences..

pat, i miss you too! don't worry.. we'll see each other soon.. hope you got my message the other day..

inna, twas nice YMing you last night.. and tricia too!

don't worry.. we'll meet again!

i know i find it nice to be alone. being alone means a lot of room for thought. being alone means you can think well, be at peace, and be sure that there's nothing to get in your way. but when you're with friends you love, those whom you trust and run to, those who love you as you are, those who are simply there, you'd just find it hard to be alone..

here i am again with my friendship ramblings. but seriously, i'd rather be with true friends and think together than be alone and think alone and yes, have no one to listen to you..

*crap, someone tried sending me an mms.. whoever you are, fyi: my n-gage still doesn't have mms and gprs settings.. blame Globe.. their fault!*

i don't like hanging out with too-rowdy people though. i mean, rowdy-insensitive people. those who don't notice that something's bothering you.. those who are too absorbed in their own worlds.

am i selfish? i think so..

hay, tomorrow's another day. wish me luck..

strangely, the song's been in my head all day..

3 days is NOT a long weekend. teachers keep on saying "oh, enjoy your long weekend!" yadah yadah yadah.. and they say that AFTER giving homework that'll take forever for you to finish. nice going..

today was stress-filled. i went to rehearsal at recess time. we did choreo. i wasn't able to make it to rehearsal at lunch time cuz i did the bio lab report. i dunno what happened at lunch rehearsal.. argh..

then shox, english time! stressful! first we had this discussion on essays.. as in, discussion,, same old crap.. after the discussion, we had a seatwork, then our teacher went, "to those who will do the dramatic monologues and the skit presentation on monday, be prepared, blah3.." and it dawned on me, shit! i totally forgot my monologue already! as in, all those lines are soooooo out of mind! i had a copy of it in the computer, but that was erased when my sister reformatted the computer! good thing ms reyes kept a copy! or else i'm toast! shox, savior..

i can only imagine the embarrassment if i didn't get the dramatic monologue piece i wrote.. it's gonna be recorded daw kasi, to be sent to some country i forgot.. argh.. haha,, what if i didn't have the copy and then i'd still be asked to do it and it'd still be recorded.. patatasfritas!

multitasking queen is in action once more. YM, homework, blog, reading a romantic novel. i know the romantic novel bit makes you think, "shit, she's dreaming again?!" haha! yes, like ate joy told me, there's really a time every month wherein one would live in lunacy.. drama queens rule!

i hate the feeling when one feels so sure of what to blog, then when blogging time comes, all ideas go kaput. i mean, after wasting time thinking of a lot of things, being in a reflective mood, finally telling yourself that there's a "writer" in you, mawawala lang lahat ng ideas mo.. ultimate bad trip!

there's no school tomorrow! AND no rehearsal! i love..

i have to do homework though, so, well, i hate..

i'm happy to be of help. it's been nice talking to ate joy, inna, grace, eo, b.a, grandmama and nicole today. i feel loved.

a friendship fight has been consulted to me today. and i realized that i give advice, but i derive them only from thoughts. i just say what i feel like saying, and fortunately, turns out that people learn..

like what i said today, "you don't understand something about her the same way she doesn't understand something about you. you end up fighting because of differences. it only means one thing: it's true that we're all unique! and because their is difference - uniqueness, understanding and acceptance would get in the picture. if there is understanding, a good relationship is obtained!"

i can't believe that came from the recesses of what's left of my brain.

anyhoo, good night to everyone.

and, goodbye til tomorrow!

my gosh! that song from even stevens is soooooooooo l.s.s-able!

we went to the moon
in 1969
not 1968
but a year later..............

then later on

it's just an award
it's just an award
you shouldn't have gotten influenza
it's just an award
it's just an award
i guess we should sing another stanza!

i dunno if i'm singing it right, but i don't care.. since even stevens played, which was at 4pm, i never stopped singing it! grarr! it's fun though!

yahoo! i've done all there is to do for school! so now there's time to bum! yes, friends! i did the math homework and the english homework! also, i'm done reading the chapters for filipino and for bio! yahoo! i'm such a geek for doing homework, but at least now i'm done and i can bum!

been in love with books lately. ridding the internet high, but not completely stupid to let go of going online!

that love for books is decreasing though, cuz of some element called "the sims".. continued it during bum time,, and i'm finding it hard to stop..

now the game's taking over..

goodbye till tomorrow!

i lost weight again! woohoo! woohoo! hahaha! crap, i'm hyper na naman!

i looooooooooooved my weekend! i looooooooooooved the spcp fair! galing galing! hehe! galing ni pam mag-guitar! haha!

wasn't able to watch pat though.. well at least we got time to booooond! hay, love you, pat!!

dance episodes went well! i lost my ticket though when i checked my bag last night. sayang cuz tickets are soooo important to me! they bring a lot of memories. i have the tickets of all the plays and concerts i watch. and knowing that i lost the dance episodes ticket makes me kinda sad.. oh well, at least the memories are kept! even without the evidence..

after such a long time i got to spend time with treasured batchmates.. bonding time with pat and aika.. plus i made epal with benchbarx.. (thanks, bench! ang astig nyo!) galing nga eh! 3 in one! i had a reunion with paulinians, then a freak-union (was with b.a, then ilsa.. then we saw dianne, nicky and ate kyla) and a footlooser-union (b.a and me, then dianne, and paolo was on stage playing a dating game! camille romero won! haha!).. so from there you could say i had the time of my life..

the variety show was great! akafellas performed early cuz they had a gig at dish later in the evening.. b.a and i were texting ate kyla cuz the tech booth was filled with people! ayun, she spotted us naman! haha! gosh, ate kyla has longer hair now, and she has glasses na! and she's so thin! b.a and i thought nga na madadaganan sha nung headphones eh! but still she's pretty! cuz she's a freak! hehe, love your own!

then miki hahn sang! galing, super! hay, we all wanted to melt!

what else pa ba.. hmm.. oh! oh! ntwine and kjwan performed! everyone was craaaazy! grbe sila jo, sara jane (naka-isang truck ata ng red bull!), pam, guada, bsta everyone went ecstatic!

i went out for around an hour to bond with aika.. andami kong nalaman! my gosh! haha!

basta yun, i saw cincoers! awww.... shux.. gusto kong umiyak!

like i told inna, i'm experiencing a severe withdrawal syndrome. tears shall flow heavily for the next couple of months..

indeed, friendship is the best gift!

iba talaga ang paulinian! thanks, guys!

got home around half an hour ago.. school ended at 12:30 but we had rehearsal til 5pm so, there..

sem break (?) na! we won't have school from tomorrow til tuesday.. wednesday would mean hell days again.. i'm happy though, that english homework is the only homework we have (i would have been happier if there's no homework at all! but then english class kicked in and crap, i HATE!)..

when wednesday next week comes, i'll be rehearsing extra hard! critic show na on nov 5 and it's gonna be my cast! and they said ms wada will watch! and a lot of teachers will watch! shet, nakaka-tense..

i'm going trick or treating with taco and poj! hee! then dynsel's gonna trick or treat in the same venue! hee! i ym-ed her and she asked for the features of my cousin's place.. yupyup! it's the 2 white gates with a trailer outside and some cars inside.. then it has a big belen on the roof when the holidays invade.. hehe.. my gosh, i wana go trick or treating na!

today at school ms trajeco announced again about the campus idol thingy.. haha! my classmates want me to join for the money daw.. no way noh! haha! i don't want to lose my dignity! haha! they want singers? i'm not the one! not now, not ever! i may be a music freak, but a singer? PLEASE!

t.h.e period was funny.. we're making choco crinkles and mango in beer.. and we have to name the product and make a food label of some kind.. our mango in beer shall be called "mang be" (with tippy as the image model) and the choco crinkles shall be baptized "crinkle bells: crinkle all the way!".. shit ang corny namin!

our report cards were given out today.. many were in tears.. kasi naman, everyone got low in english.. i dunno why.. WHATEVER! of course we all know why! when i got my report card, i didn't look at it.. i simply WAILED and told myself that i'm such a bad piece of crap.. i looked at my report card only now, and shit, what i said about that crap thing is right.. i'm such a bad piece..

i'm in YM right now with bea (achacoso) and nicole (meily).. having two nice conversations.. ganda! bea's working on her journalism paper.. here's an excerpt of our convo when i offered to help her..

bea : hmm..just a question..
bea : do you agree w/ the implementation of sex education?
pauline : shit, ndi puedeng neutral? well i'm more of a YES person..
bea : why?
pauline : oh! for women, yes cuz they need to protect themselves.. for men, no, cuz at such an early age they'll know how to rape..
bea : o'nga 'no..
bea : that's new..

hehe,, i'm not saying all men are like that, but let's face it.. most men tend to have lustful thoughts every now and then.. it's a fact!

then i just finished a ym conversation with michelle molas.. she asked what book i used for the 1st quarter book report.. then i told her that i had this quater's book report approved.. ayun.. hehe.. i'm gonna use "the five people you meet in heaven" by mitch albom..oh yeah oh yeah! i just skipped the hassle of going to the library!

speaking of libraries, i now officially have a library in my bag! i have 4 books in my bag! hehe.. i'll read kasi one after the other and i dunno when i'll finish each one and when i'll move on to the next one.. so i'm packing a lot of them..

and to those who want to give me xmas gifts, i have a wishlist na..

*iPod (the 40gig.. iPod mini is also accepted provided that it's pink! 40gig costs 25k, iPod mini is only 16k..)
*griffin and sabine series (complete set of 5 or 6 books, 1k per book)
*violin (around 30k)
*mates, dates series (less than 10 books yata.. around 160 per book)
*Wicked musical score (dunno how much. search the net..).. even if i can't play the piano! i'll ask someone to play it for me
*female shih tzu (should be pure-bred.. around 16k)
*a trip to pat's spa

that's all i can think of right now. hehe.. can't wait til christmas! hope my mom gets to read this wishlist..

i'm trying my bestest to survive life at home without my mom and my sister. i think i'm doing fine, but i can't wait til they get back! all the kwentos are waiting to be told!

peng was playing the piano at rehearsal today.. she looked sad.. i want to do exactly that.. play the piano or the guitar when i'm sad.. kaso lang, i dunno how to play any instrument.. sacki, teach me the recorder! hehe, kidding!

i shall shut up now.. my books are waiting to be read!

i just finished reading "mates, dates and inflatable bras" by cathy hopkins. like it! haha! i'm such a fan of girly books! haha! i started it this afternoon and finished it this afternoon.. oh no! must go shopping for more books or else i'll have nothing to do this sembreak!

just received a message from kuya macky. he's leaving for australia! his flight's gonna be at 8pm! gosh, i'll miss you, kuya macky! i know you'll have a blast watching "the lion king!".. gawd, he's gonna watch lion king the musical! i'm inggit!

speaking of musicals, i reeeeealllllly want to be part of a musical real soon! and i'll do everything to be part of the cast when they produce "WICKED!" here in the philippines! oh i hope it gets to be a playshop play on summer 2005! *HI TEACHER RONY! I SOOO HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS!* like i said before, even if i'll just be a nameless villager who's gonna be on stage for a split second, i won't care! as long as i get to be part of the production!

oh! i had a nice conversation in YM today. i was with inna. she asked help for their class presentation for health. ts bout alcohol addiction.. given that they should present positive effects, negative effects, and first aid techniques, i came up with something..

one walks into a different bar everyday, uhm, then she grabs a bunch of drinks and becomes drunk and starts telling truths about herself. like her takes on life, her aspirations, broken dreams, blah (positive effect: being able to unload sorrows).. then she passes out, (then first aid stuff care of some hottie comes in).. hottie takes the girl to the his place and the guy starts raping the girl (negative effect.) then the girl wakes up, doesn't care what house she's in, and continues her daily tasks: go home, get dressed, go to work, and then walk into a bar, grab a couple of drinks, tell truths about her self, pass out, and end up in a guy's house, go home and get dressed.. something like a vicious cycle..

haha! twas all i could think of.. then we started talking! more like reminiscing and thinking hard!

get this: how come we always have this formula for class presentations? like one does a bad thing, someone would walk up to the bad person and explain about that bad thing, then the bad person realizes the mistake and turns into a good person.. the end! nakakainis noh!?

here's more! in CHRISTIAN LIVING CLASS!! haha! there'd be a group of good guys who are gonna get bullied by bad guys.. then a teacher or a nun approaches the bullies, the bullies would say sorry, and THE END!

and who'd ever forget the singit parts like a guy courting a girl, with roses and a guitar, then the guy would sing and offer roses, AND KNEEL DOWN IN FROM OF THE GIRL, while the girl makes pakipot!

napaka-formulaic pala ng class presentations! que panget! haha!

nakakatakot! at sa lagay na yun, may nakaka-perfect dati! yuck!

mga bata talaga.. mga estudyante talaga.. hehehe..

i'm your theater queen!
you have found your superstar!
theater queen!
you don't have to look too far!

after watching "that's so raven" i rushed to the mirror and sang those lines! hay, i'm dreaming again.. as if i'll really be a theater queen! wish ko lang, diba?

so i guess bumming at home isn't so bad after all! i'm watching "fahrenheit 9/11" in a while, and maybe i'll watch again "ring 2" tomorrow.. i thought of watching ring after fahrenheit, but then i realized that i'll be alone in the room tonight. so better if i watch it when the sun's up. or else i'll be scared to death tonight thus not being able to sleep peacefully!

i did nothing today! well, i splurged! (shit, must stop or else will gain weight again! sayang naman the 22 lbs i lost!) and watched t.v, and played the sims, had moments online, and i'm now installing limewire in poj's computer! i think the p.c in the living room needs reformatting again.. ate phoebe! come home! also, i think my internal cd burner has to be transferred to this p.c. my sister's external burner could be used for the living room p.c.. to make things simpler, OUR COMPUTERS AT HOME NEED MAJOR OVERHAULING!

but you know what, it'd be a whole lot easier if i don't burn and burn and burn cd's all the time.. who needs cd's when IPODs exist?! hehe..

i'll attend a halloween party tomorrow. also, one on sunday. i have my eye on the perfect make-up already! unfortunately, no perfect costume yet. must search closet tonight til tomorrow!

made a list of books to be bought. oh crap. i ended up having 30 in my list! shall post them on my closet door so that my folks could read it.. hehe,, making parinig again!

don't get me wrong. i'm not materialistic.. i just have a thing for words and music.

i want to learn how to play the piano. dunno how self-taught pianists were able to do it though.. so i guess i can't teach myself.. i don't want to take lessons naman cuz i'll spend pa.. plus my sked is crap already.. have a lot to do.. point being, oh no, there's no way..

going back to the title, i really wish i could be a theater queen! i don't know how i'll start, but i know how i'll end: i'll end being a bum pa rin..

get over what?

hmmm.. i still can't get over the "i'm a theater queen" thing! haha! maybe that's the song for me! oooooooh! hahaha! when will this illusion stop?!

anyhoo, i went trick or treating yesterday! i was with my brother.. no, it wasn't that fun.. twas the first time i went around our subdivision though.. there were times we walked, but most of the time we were at the back of kyle's pick-up.. but i walked a lot pa rin! i remember chasing the pick-up cuz one house took quite long! ayun.. hehe,, exercise! i deserve it.. tagal ko na ndi nag-eexercise! i had to run to the end of the street, then turn left, and run downhill, turn right, and run uphill!! haha! when i reached the pick-up i think i lost 20lbs already!

oh, today's another day! another chance to hoard another village and grab their candy (which i won't eat, btw.. i'm thinking of selling it to my classmates.. capital ko na lang yung all the walking and running i did!).. i'll put make-up again! ugh! plus i'll put make-up on poj too! hay..

i watched "ring 2" yesterday before going out to trick or treat. bad trip, i kept my eyes open. apparently, no scene made me cover my eyes or anything. i guess i have to watch another horror movie to get me in the halloween mood.

i only have the exorcist, the phone, the grudge, and ring 1.. boring!

i remembered tuloy the part in the grudge wherein the two kids were being chased and they ran towards a room.. they covered the door with stuff like a couch, shelves, and other stuff. then the creepy creature was able to get in pa rin.. cuz the door was sliding.. grarr!

i'm bored. obviously, i'm bored. oh! i know! i'll go to sfogs.com!