a mind is very private..

hey!! astig ng story ng kptid ko yesterday!! they caught a thief!! astig!! hehe,, kc gn2 yun...

it was P's birthday,, then they had a house party that night.. when the party was over,, heps (the barx name),, together with their other paulinian batchmates,, went out for a walk.. they left their things in just one place.. while that was going on,, C left her stuff there and noticed that a green guy was lying down on the sofa,, looking at her as she placed her stuff in there.. C had a hunch that the guy was a thief,, but later on joked about the idea..

it was 2am when my sister was supposed to call my mom before she slept,, so when she was looking for her nokia 3650,, she wasnt able to find it.. she shouted,, "ei!! nawawala yung 36 ko!!" so then the others rushed in and searched their stuff.. when they checked their wallets,, it was damn empty! so they grew nervous.. and as C thought moments before,, it might have been the green guy!!

they had a sleepover that night.. and to their surprise,, the green guy was there too! he slept over with them!!

it was morning already.. 6am to be exact.. my sister had to go to school then so both phones were set to alarm at 6am.. she heard her other phone (the 3300) and woke up.. then she heard abother phone beeping.. she then shouted "phone ko yun!! bilis!! phone ko yun!" the green guy went out and said that his phone was ringing.. A went after him and checked his pocket.. to their surprise,, it was my sister's 3650! the ones at the sleepover then woke up in the hopes of getting their money back!

they went after the green guy and J, his companion.. since J lived near the house where the party was,, A and another guy went to J's place to search for the lost money.. A searched the house and found something wrapped in tissue.. he opened it and found the money! the exact amount that was missing from J2 and C! it was already obvious that they were the thieves so they rushed back to P's place with the thieves and were in the garage for interrogation..

their excuse for doing such act was a family problem.. obviously an excuse so lame! heps, etc. ended up screwing those guys.. M broke down in tears as she kicked and punched the thieves.. P's bodyguards then stopped M from punching.. as they stopped M,, they saw a flying chair headed towards the thieves,, courtesy of M2! my sister left cuz she had to go to class.. with her phone back..

today,, they are filing a complaint against J and the green guy.. they deserve it..

so guys,, take care of ur stuff! and keep them within your reach at all times,, especially during social gatherings..

Schoolgirl


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hinayupak naman hindi ako gnyn ah!! mali yung quiz!! pero cute yung pic!! pero ndi ako nagpapakita ng panty noh! chka ndi ako maninilip ng boobs! bastusing hinayupak yan!!

hmmm.. i just finished playing badminton!! i won against my mom!! haha!! and now im playing with my yoyo.. bad 3p nga lang, wen i was looking for my yoyo,, my straightening serum spilled in my bag!! stupid me! so i had to change my bag ang i cant find the perfect bag to use tomorrow!!

nweiz,, i wana sleep already!! but it hurts to sleep now cuz there's school na tmrw!! and i hate school!! (u know what i mean,, ryt true friends?) school makes me sick.. school makes me sleepy.. school makes me wana die.. school sucks!! plus,, i have to stay there til 6pm! what the f*ck am i going to school for? to be enslaved?

i was just looking for a decent life.. why did it just get more messed up?

currently feeling DEPRESSED...
crying at the moment.. there's just too much to think of...

hmph.. i hate tomorrow!! i hate going to school,, i hate school!! like,, here's what's gonna happen tomorrow:

english: quiz
p.e: quiz (daw!)
c.l: quiz
math: tulog as always..
science: long test!
social: quiz!

then it's club pa til 6pm eh i do nothing there naman! talk about productivity...

imagine,, 3-4 quizzes in just one day!! to think it's the science long test tomorrow too! it's so unjust.. i need a resolution.. i need change!! fast!

i just reached home a few minutes ago so,, well, i'm just plain cranky..

nga pala,, buy the feb issue of k-zone!! alexa's in there!! hi alexa!! haha!! rock on, playshop mtg 2003!!

uhh,, i havent updated for one day and it seems like a long time already! haha!! nwei,, we had the mock elections at school today!! and well, i voted for gma as president and i abstained for the vice.. the results are as follows:

president: gloria macapagal arroyo
and vice president: loren legarda-leviste respectively

girl power!! though i think the outcome was because of our being in an exclusive school and well, we value our femininity too much..

but i guess they can rule the country.. though i think we still need some male people in the government too! but well, it's up to the voters to decide on who they're voting for.. it was just a mock election.. it has no prediction of the outcome of the may elections so i guess we just have to hope and pray and dream and wish that we would have good rulers in the country!! like, hello? we should never ever ever believe that some are good leaders just because we watch them on t.v or because they have these action movies!! (i'm not saying that all celebrities make bad politicians..)

gosh i feel so lazy today!! i didnt go to school cuz im sick.. but still i feel so tamad and sooo,,, yikes-y!! haha!! nweiz,, im sneaking out lang cuz my sister's using this comp!! and this comp's super slow!!!darn!! ciao!!

ei!! i'm free now!! and im using the not-so-slow comp already!! wow!! happy!! shalalala!!

i came up with two poems this week.. we were forced to write in filipino and i was playing around after the science long test so i came up with the other one!! actually,, i wrote 2 poems for filipino but i didnt want the panget one cuz it was a love poem.. and i know evry1 hates love poems!!

the first one i wrote is about celebrity candidates.. we were asked to write kasi after the mock elections..

PULIKULA

nakikita ko lagi ang larawan mo
nakapaskil sa lahat ng mga kanto
napakadalisay ng ngiting hatid mo
bahagi pala iyon ng kampanya mo

huwag kang mag-alala, nasa silid ko pa
ang larawan natin na mayroon pang pirma
noon ay naro'n ka lang sa pelikula
bakit ka ba sumabak sa pulitika?

***ang panget noh?! wahahahaha!!*** pero ok lang.. bsta ba may ma-submit ako eh!! wehehe...

the second one is a freeverse poem.. it sucks just like the first one.. but still, i dedicate it to my best friend.. i know you know who you are..

to that unsung hero --- my best friend...

we thought it was the end
but it declared a beginning..
i wished for something more, and it came..
you came..
is it a blessing?
will it kill me?
whatever it may be, i dont care..
what matters is that you're here
and i'm here
and we're together..
still holding on amidst all trials
will forever hold on, come what may

we've been like this for quite a while now
and i can't help but give you my thanks
for you have been putting up with me
no matter how cranky i could be

i feel sorry for you
for my being a pain in the ass
but despite all that, here you are
giving me your all
even if it spells your doom
even if it means your death
you'd give up your joys just for me
you are the greatest gift from up there

i love you
even if the world treats you as nothing
you are everything --- at least for me..
as a gift of thanks, i promise you
i will love and protect you
till the day i die..

**im a bad poet.. screw me!! wahahahaha!!

nweiz,, i absented myself from school today.. baka galit sakin c sir gani dahil na-miss ko yung t.h.e!! wahaha!! kadire!!

trese: anung homework?

groupmates sa science: ginawa ko n yung plaster thing!! sana may progress na yung geo time scale!! thanks!!

cincoers and 7'03: pa-kwento sa field trip!! lalo na yung mga nag-inuman!! wahaha!!

hannah: see you tomorrow at the premiere night of magic kitchen!!

jerry yan: wo ai ni!

love ko kayong lahat!!

...bakit kaya puro survey dun? nakaka-banas pero nkk-aliw kaya masarap sagutan kung nasa mood lang.. nagkataon na nasa mood ako...

1. friends or boyfriend/grlfriend?
*best friend na lang.. kasi it's more than a boyfriend.. chka mahirap i-build ang relationships ng best friends!

2. college or high school?
*pwde b grade school nln para madali? kaso ln may garapitz!! wahaha!! wag nln ako mag-aral!!

3. angelina jolie or julia roberts?
*julia roberts kc gusto ko c spike sa notting hill!

4. brad pitt or tom cruise?
*bob ong!

5. basketball or volleyball?
*bumagsak ako sa p.e nung 2d qtr dhil sa volley.. basketball nln para nndun c daddy b.j!

6. eastwood or malate?
*masaya sa malate! gaya2 ln ang eastwood!

7. redhorse or strong ice?
*im not into beer.. hard drinks ln ako..

8. mcdo or jollibee?
*happy meals!

9. may bf/gf or wla?
*kung ok b nmn yung guy eh!! pero kung nde,, i'd rather be single for life!

10. grudge or ring?
*hindi naman magsisi-gaya lahat ng nkkpag-pangkilabot kung walang RING eh.. kaya sa ring ako! dun kc sa grudge,, ang tanga ng characters!

11. go for younger or older? (bf/gf)?
*eh di older.. kasi mas mature yung isip ng girls db?

12. rubbershoes or sandals?
*i love rubber shoes!! lalo na my pink pair!

13. lotr or harry potter?
*the wedding planner..

14. cellphone or computer?
*can't live without both!

15. globe or smart?
*globe ako eh! i trashed my smart sim!

16. christmas vacation or summerbreak?
*summer.. para may playshop!

17. brains or goodlooks?
*bakit ba laging tinatanong yan? maybe cuz each guy only has one of those! buti pa girls,, beauty and brains! tulad ko!! wahaha!!

18.have you wtched return of the king?
*nope.. pero marunong akong kumanta!

20. when?
*sinabi nang ndi eh! sapak, gusto mo?

21. counterstrike or ragnarok?
*wala!! n-gage games prin ako!! haha,, obsessed sa fone!

22. adventurous or romantic movie?
*romantic sana kung may significant other.. wala kasi eh!

23. winston or marlboro?
*d.j mix.. mabango!

24. manila bulletin or inquirer?
*inquirer kasi mas opinionated!

25. abs or gma?
*kapamilya..

26. pillow w/o blnket or blnket w/o pillow?
*eh di 2 blankets.. fold mo yung isa para may pillow ka! solve?

27. girbaud or esprit?
*girbaud.. lalo na kung sale!

28. badminton or tabletennis?
*i play badminton evry sunday.. im learning to love it na!

29. kisses or toblerone?
*kisses.. plain lang or with cookies.. hate nuts!

30. math or science?
*ayokong mag-aral! patayan na!

31. nokia or samsung?
*i've been a nokia loyalist since 4th grade!

32. beermen or aces?
*de la salle green archers!

33. o'sullivan or deuel?
*sana may option na nasa panahon ko!

34. bmw or mb?
*bmw z3.. pero porsche boxster prin tlga eh!

35. mango or banana?
*ay nkk-green!

36. malls or bars?
*malls.. kasi sa bars,, nkk-taba puro pagkain.. chka minsan gross yung ppl.. pero minsan,, cge,, bars din..

37. y ru answern this?
*paki mo b?

38. would you answer more surveys such as this?
*depende s trip ko!

39. who do you think will read this?
*wala!

40. what's up?
*what's up? sipain kita papnta sa air.. you're up!

hindi ba kayo naaasiwa sa kaisipan na saturday ngyn, sunday na bukas, at pasukan na naman the day after that?

makatarungan ba na 2 araw lang ang inilalaan para sa weekend? bkit hindi nln 3 or 4 or 5?

hindi pa ba kayo nabbwict sa mga guro lalo na sa matematika? na hindi naman alam kung anu ang practical application ng 1st degree equations? at ng quadratic trinomials? at ng mga PST, DOTS, SDOTC, APE, MPE, eh kung gawaan mo ng summary lahat ng lessons na iyan,, lalanding ka lang naman sa SHIT at isang napakasakit na migraine? eh kung tutuusin,, basic math lang naman ang kailangan mo para maka-survive? hindi mo naman kailangan na alamin kung ano ang factorization ng

2x+c+b2+l+a+n+g+h+y+a+n+g+b+u+h+a+y

para malaman kung magkano ang isusukli mo sa matandang dalagang bumili ng kendi na piso lang ang halaga at nagbayad ng dalawang piso sayo! diba?

sino ba ang taong ginawang subject ang higher math? kung buhay ka pa, papatayin kita.. kung patay ka na,, bakit mo naman ipinasa ang kaparusahang ito sa mga batang tulad namin na ang gusto lang naman ay mamuhay ng tahimik paglaki namin!

***walang hiya naman.. premiere night ng magic kitchen mamaya eh! wag mo naman akong bigyan ng homework, sir!

pagod na ko sa kakagawa ng mga utos ng guro.. grade lang naman ang nakukuha ko at hindi kayamanan.. buti pa ang teachers.. sila na nga ang nagpapahirap sa estudyante,, sila pa ang kumikita ng pera!

hindi ko kayo minamasama,, aking mga guro.. pero pagod na ko.. hinihintay ko na lang ang araw na mawala ang lahat ng ito at maging progressive ang buhay ko kahit paano!

wehehe.. ang aliw nung nkasulat sa site nya.. check this out..

http://www.visprint.net/56/index.php?cat=7

basahin nyo yung tungkol sa nasa thing about the pen!! ang astig!! wala lang!!

i just reached home! i was at the premiere night of the magic kitchen!! and,, JERRY yan was soooo cute! and the story was really nice.. it had its own flaws but it ended with a bang and i liked it..

it was basically about a girl who had a "curse" whenever she attempted to have sex.. but major parts were about cooking and how it was related to love.. (i knew only now that there exists a connection between the two.. but hey! they do have a point!)

bad trip lang,, when jerry's name was flashed on screen,, the people were all shrieks!! ang sakit sa ears!! then whenever jerry appeared,, they were all "ang cute nya talaga!! aaahhh!!!" or some would go "aww... he looks like a baby!" or still some would say "dont kiss her! akin lang yang kiss mo, jerry!" damn! it was mighty painful that i didnt get the story that much!

then again it ended well, so i guess it was almost perfect in a way.. the only thing i hated about it was whenever the people shrieked as jerry was on screen.. i also didnt like the way it was hoarded by a lot of fan clubs! sayang.. but when it's just the movie being talked about, it' a must-see!

i dont know why,, but i feel so empty..

another bothersome thought..

MALAPIT NA MAG-MARCH 1!!

and i dont know how to go about that day! i feel anxious..

---nkuha ko nanaman 2 sa friendster.. sorry tlga pero wlaln.. gusto ko magsulat..

What if...

Mawala cya sau?
*hindi naman sha mwwla kung sha n tlga yun eh..

Sktn ka nya?
*lagi nln b ako magpapa-awa? i wont be a battered woman! pero hindi naman nya magagawang saktan ako kung sha n tlga yun eh..

Gaguhin ka nya?
*bakit nya ko gagaguhin kung wala naman akong shortcomings?

Ayaw na niya?
*eh di hindi sha deserving na magkaroon ng significant other!

Nakita mo cyng kasama ex nya?
*malay mo friends naman cla ng ex nya.. aie! ako pala yung ex nya! haha kidding.. pero if it happens,, then there must be a reason behind it.. then again kung love nya ko,, wala shang intention na hindi maganda..

Mkpgsplit cya sau dhl bblik cya sa ex nya?
*eh di hindi sha tlga deserving na magkaroon ng significant other! pero kung sa whore nya ko ipagpapalit,, (ayoko nang gamitin yung "horse",, mashadong conservative.. its bwt time to break free!),, eh di i wont ever speak to him again! til the day i die!

Malamn mong mahal na mahal ka niya?
*gagawin ba niya lahat ng torture n yan kung mahal nya nga ako? shempre hindi diba?

Titigan ka niya sa mata at sbhng "mahal kta"?
*tumitig ka lang.. hayaan mo akong matunaw!

Kntahan ka niya?
*kung mganda yung boses eh di cge.. kung boses palaka,, magsalita nln sha! mas maaapreciate ko pa!

Cya pla ung soulmate mo?
*puede nmn na girl yung soulmate eh!!

************************ang labo ko!! ang labo din nitong mga tanong n 2!

LONELY AND EMPTY

hindi ko alam pero i have this really disturbing thought of my being lonely.. malapit na kc cguro ang valentines day.. tapos cguro pressured ako kasi wala naman akong "manloloko" (a.k.a boyfriend..) at ibig sabihin nun,, ito na naman ang isang lilipas na valentines day na tutulugan ko lang.. may "valentines day" pa kaya sa vocabulary ko? o kathang isip lang ito na hinding hindi naman mangyayari sa totoong buhay? panaginip lang ba na magiging lonely ako, o kanina pa ako gising at mulat ako sa buong pangyayari? bakit nga ba ako nalulungkot? meron bang dapat ikalungkot? nanjan naman yung friends ko para magbigay ng suporta.. or makinig man lang at least..

pero sandali..

nasaan na nga ba sila?

WORRIED

bakit ako worried? dahil ba sa pressure na dala ng walang date sa valentines day? o dahil nawawala yung taong mahal ko? nasaan nga ba sha? o ang mas mahalagang tanong, nabubuhay ba sha? meron ba tlgang "siya" o nag-iilusyon lang ako?

HINDI AKO NAG-IILUSYON!

alam ko may buhay sha.. alam ko nanjan sha! pero bakit hindi ko tlga maramdaman? siguro dahil hindi sha nagpaparamdam.. para ma-miss ko sha o para sabihin sakin na ayaw nya sa isang hamak na tulad ko? sino ba naman kasi ako para mahulog ang loob nya sakin?

......... i miss you .........

it is almost the end of tuesday.. and the campaign period has started! gosh! ang dami nang t.v ads and posters!! nakakahilo na naman!!

anyways,, HI ABLETZ!! MISS NA KITA!! ..thankful ako ngayon dahil napangiti ako ni abletz kahit na ba depressed ako buong araw.. thank you talaga.. kahit isang simpleng tag lang yun, you dont know how much it means to me..

hayyyy... isang araw na naman ang patapos.. pero ang pagdurusa ko, nasa simula pa lamang.. kailan nga ba ito titigil? o ang mas mahalagang tanong, titigil nga ba ito?

nalulungkot ako dahil kulang ako.. pero hindi ko naman alam kung ano ang magpupuno sa pagkukulang na iyon.

oo nga pala,, CINCO, PAHINGI NAMAN NG PICTURES OH! PLEASE? I'M GOING TO POST THEM HERE.. THANKS IN ADVANCE! MISS NA MISS NA MISS KO NA KAYO.. NANDITO PA RIN AKO PROMISE, HINDI KO NAMAN KAYO MAKAKALIMUTAN EH.. YOU'RE THE PEOPLE I LOVE THE MOST..

...malapit na valentine's day.. pero sino nga ba ang sasabihan ko nun bukod sa pamilya ko? wala akong inspirasyon kundi ang mga bagay-bagay sa paligid ko.. special someone? wala ako niyan.. pero nagsisisi ba ako? sabi ng utak ko hindi naman.. i can live alone.. pero sabi ng puso ko, "anak ka ng hinayupak! ang plastic ng utak mo!"

since malapit na ang v-day.. (why am i making a big deal of the dreaded day!) here's lyrics to a great song i know.. i got it from FOOTLOOSE the musical.. (HI PLAYSHOP MTG!)

almost paradise..

i thought that dreams belonged to other men
cuz each time i got close they'd fall apart again

i feared my heart would beat in secrecy
i faced the nights alone
oh how could i have known
that all my life i only needed you

almost paradise,
i'm walking on heaven's door
almost paradise
how could you ask for more
i swear that i can see forever in your eyes
paradise...

i thought that perfect love was hard to find
i've almost given up
you must have read my mind

and all those dreams i saved for a rainy day
they're finally coming true
i'll share them all with you
cuz now we hold the future in our hands

almost paradise
we're knocking on heaven's door
almost paradise
how could we ask for more
i swear that i can see forever in your eyes
paradise

and in your arms salvation's not so far away
it's getting closer, closer everyday

almost paradise
we're knocking on heaven's door
almost paradise
how could we ask for more
i swear that i can see forever in your eyes
paradise
paradise
paradise

this song's really great!! you have to listen to it.. promise! i remember mica and i cried during rehearsal when jim blocked tanya and red temporarily.. that was so nice!!

another day will end in a few hours and it's driving me insane.. tomorrow, it's teachers' day and family day at the same time.. hmmm... i miss the student tchrs of spcp!! haha!! i remember all the student-teachers' "business attire" which all looked so big on them!! halatang galing sa mommies!!

anyweiz,, i got an email from abletz and she sort of told me about how grade 7 life used to be.. and i miss it so much! believe it or not, i miss garapitz' voice, causing all of us to rush to our classrooms and pretend we havent touched the computer the whole morning even if we've already listened to tons of songs uploaded by grandmama in musicmatch!! haha!! and then there's recess time, when we used to eat inside the classroom even if it was prohibited.. heck, we used to depend on lap and fifi and san mig and marj to bring food for us to finish! speaking of san mig, i remember the san mig choir! we were damn good!! haha! and there's new yorker in tondo.. and michele's hilarious antics as tony! and there was homeroom wherein we used to cry all the time.. and the november 29 incident! which caused us great chaos!

there were a lot of great highlights in gr7.. and i mean A LOT! in gr7, i could say i grew so much as a person.. though the growth did not come in height denominations! but yeah, it was the perfect year for me.. nothing could ever top it.. i can tell..

along with those great highlights came mishaps too! we were plunged to the deepest level of the deep.. we had the worst fights ever created.. we had our own share of unfortunate events, and i loved every single minute of each mishap..

i miss garapitz! and mrs friginal who shouted at us even if she was already using a microphone,, mrs antipolo who taught us how to play the guitar and gave me perfect scores even if i never knew how to play the guitar!! sr marissa who has a LOT of stories which left ms baisa with just 5 minutes of the time.. ms baisa who always gave us presentations because of that ibong adarna thing that took us the whole year.. ms genilo who is now happily married (i think!)... ms mirafuente, the teacher with quizzes "hot off the press".. literally! she was also the one who helped us bag 1st place in new yorker! mrs bathan who used to shout "GRAAAAAAAAADDDDEEE SEEEEVVVVVEEEEENN!!!!" making us freeze to death,, and dont forget her life stories about her two makulit sons! and there's mrs esmaquilan-turned-ms cristobal-to-sir fudge-to- mrs esmaquilan! math was surely a torture! and then there's sir abalahin who further nurtured the cinco talent of debating! he always lost then! haha! and finally, there's grandmama.. our mom,, who made us CINCO the best, talo the rest!

i miss gr7 life.. hope there's a way to turn back time!

REPLY SA COMMENT NI DANICA:

ganun? hindi b dapat pinagpaalam man lang sakin ni malana na ipp-watch nya s students nya yung play ntin? kc shempre work ko yun.. work ng cinco yun! kailangan natin ng royalties dhil pina-watch nya yung show ntin sa iba.. wut she did is a form of stealing..

wa q care kung anung gimik nila.. magpa-cater cla hanggang sa sumabog na yung hangin sa ulo nila.. ang dramafest kc,, hindi paramihan ng madadalang pagkain.. ang competition dun is kung marunong ba cla umarte.. ang tanong... marunong ba? o dinadaan lang sa ganda o karangyaan, eh wala naman palang maipakitang talento? kaya to this year's cast of new yorker, it's not about how pleasant your life is right now.. it's about talent.. show them that you've got IT! if you have It, that is..

GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS TO VII-8 IN THEIR DRAMA FEST ENTRY!! cinco KNOWS you can do it..

REPLY NAMAN KAY JO:
onga eh.. miss ko n tlga c garapitz.. yes,, YOU DECEIVED ME!! (in that low and creepy and yikes-y voice..) i still remember it clearly.. it was the time when we had the "last 5 minutes" sign db? then noelle raised it 10 minutes ahead of time.. we got dismissed early and we laughed our heads out!! pagbalik nya,, patay tayo!! haha!! aliw!!

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family day last nyt.. man,, ang boring nung 1st part.. nung nsa 2d floor cafe.. buti nln pinaalis din kme. nainis tlga ko nung tym n yun sobra!! we were taught that freakish dance.. tapos aun,, buti nln my friend called me.. habang nagddance,, nsa fne ln ako.. wahehehe.. feeling ko nainis yung parent pero i dont care kasi ayoko nmn tlga nung dance thing n yun! it was sooooooo damn boring! good thing my friend saved my ass.. thanks dude! i owe u one..

the next thing i went to was the open jam there,, mejo boring.. the guy was cute daw.. pero well,, he looks like teacher p.j!! haha! (hi tchr p.j!! miss u!) chka bad 3p.. hanep yung fireworks nagstrt.. pucha puro kwitis lang!! tpos yung finale,, yung belt thing!! wahaha,, ang labo!! pero there were the aerial flowers din nmn.. konti nga ln.. haha!! gosh i remember the other new year's eve when we had this "pikachu" thing that exploded!! haha!! poor thing!

nweiz,, it was also tchrs day yday.. there was a mass.. and aun.. nung homily,, the priest was like,, "tumayo ang mga nagmamahal" and i stood up! kasi its true.. then "tumayo ang mga nasawi" i stood up again.. then there was "tumayo ang mga nangangambang magmahal" and i stood up.. AGAIN... and finally there was "tumayo ang mga iniwan.." and since it happened to me too, i stood up,,, AGAIN! damn.. andami n pala nangyari sakin?! wlaln.. but all of those did happen.. though i believe that those things spelled my foolishness..

whoosh!! we dont have classes 2day!! cuz it was the family day na nga yday and like,, it ended at 9pm.. and m currently experiencing back pains and non-stop sneezing.. maybe from all the screaming and shouting and all the stuff i had (?) to do..

anyweiz,, i have an announcement to make..

WHO HAS A SPARE CELL PHONE? I'M MORE THAN WILLING TO RENT IT.. OR WHO'S SELLING A PHONE? I'LL BUY IT.. MSG OR EMAIL ME LANG! THANKS!

happy valentine's day to all who have dates... and to all those who dont have,, (just like me!) let's burn ourselves..

(standing ovation..)

nalalabuan ako sa kung ano yung iniisip ko ngyn.. at naiinis ako kung bakit kailangan ko mag-isip ng kawalan.. bakit nga kaya, noh?

oo,, papalapit ng papalapit ang valentine's day.. at naiinis akong isipin na wala talaga akong date.. well, kailangan kong tanggapin yun.. pero may plano ako para bukas na tlgang kailangan ko na i-figure out by today.. okay lang n wla akong date.. bsta b mgwa ko yung plan n yun.. at ma-reach yung goal brought about by the said plan..

nainis yung mom ko sakin yesterday.. ang gulo daw kasi ng hair ko.. sbe ko,, pa-rebond na ulet,, kaso lang sabi nya,, before the trumpets play nln daw ulet para naman gumanda yung hair ko on the show.. just like what we did last yr.. kaso ln,, bkt nmn kailangn maghintay ng gnun ka-tagal? i want a hair makeover na ulet!!

i'm bored,, i've got nothing to do, and yet i'm filled with numerous obligations.. it's confusing.. im nothing but a dumbass failure..

this will be a lonely valentine's day.. but what the heck.. i have to deal with it since i dont have any choice..

want proof?

day 1: critic show ng Banaag last wednesday.. shempre critic show,, may dinner courtesy of aina!! ang pagkain? baked mac and chicken lollipop..

day 2: i didnt eat dinner in school last nyt.. when my mom picked me up, we went to kenny roger's for dinner.. nndun kc c tito and ate phoebe and poj.. anu p nga ba ang makakain sa kenny roger's? malamang chicken.. their ribs arent sweet enough for me kasi eh!

day 3: at this very moment,, i saw yaya picking out food from our freezer.. she's going to prepare dinner in a while.. she's also preparing some charcoal.. i asked her what she was going to grill and she replied, "uhh,, dinner.. chicken barbecue"

what do you think will happen in a few days? i'm already experiencing fever and back pains right now.. but i dont blame it on the chicken.. but if ever i feel worse,, whoops!! i guess you would already know what i'll die of!

FAVORITE name?
*eh di pauline! malamang!
FAVORITE number?
*21.... whoops!! patayan!! quiet lang!
FAVORITE time of the day?
*3am
FAVORITE friend?
*cinco! shempre! love ko yun!
FAVORITE weather?
*yung tama lang.. kpg malapit na mag-xmas.. para wow!!
FAVORITE enemy?
*HORSE!! i hate you more than anything!
FAVORITE hobby?
*magmahal ng friends..
FAVORITE color?
*PINK!
FAVORITE food?
*sushi!! yum!! ooohh... i crave..
FAVORITE expression?
*yung "ay syett!" ng cinco!! haha!
FAVORITE website?
*itong blog ko!
FAVORITE book/magazine/newspaper?
*book: madami eh.. mostly bob ong.. chka bsta madami!
*mag: i dont read mags..
*newspaper: inquirer chka star!
FAVORITE song?
*basta senti.. bout friends and bout love.. hmm.. grow old with you.. aie!! issue!!
FAVORITE resto/fastfood?
resto: burgoo!!
fastfood: mcdo!! ooohh!! yung fries na inuubos ni gab and alexa!! hmm... may oras din kayo!! haha!
FAVORITE holiday/occasion?
*birthday ko and Christmas and new year!
FAVORITE thing/possesion?
*my gorgeous phone that everyone plays with.. "inagaw nyo ang lahat sa akin!"
FAVORITE exgirlfriend/exboyfriend?
*isa pa lang nmn naging boyfriend ko eh..
FAVORITE get-up?
*rehearsal clothes para comfy!
FAVORITE pastime?
*matulog.. kpg math and t.he and sci and fil.. maraming subjects tinutulugan ko eh.. social lang nde kc magagalit c ms..
FAVORITE place?
*my bed..
FAVORITE brand of JEANS?
*i got a new pair of Roxy jeans!! i like it..
FAVORITE TV show?
*that's so raven and lizzie mcguire!
FAVORITE radio station?
*magic 89.9!! astig ng magic shoe crew!! (morning zoo crew!)
FAVORITE embarassing moment?
*tuwing nawawapoise ako..
FAVORITE gift that you received?
*my best friend
FAVORITE member of the family?
*poj! ang sarap i-squeeze!!
FAVORITE gift that you gave to someone?
*a listening ear and good advice..
FAVORITE person (last month)?
*best friend ko..
FAVORITE person (at present)?
*sha prin!
FAVORITE fad/craze nowadays?
*my phone..
FAVORITE game?
*dapat tlga magkaroon ng UAAP na game for my phone and for my ps2.. mag-imbento nga kayo! as of now,, i love lemonade tycoon!
Now after answering the questions above WHAT
IS YOUR WISH?
*to have a date tomorrow..
Last words:
*nasaan ka na?

my brother, mom and tito are in 8 waves in bulacan, i think.. and my sister,, i duno.. i think she went to school then had a gimmick of some sort..


in my eyes i see you as mysterious and strange alot
of people wish they could know you better and
you are probably an artist? i really wish there
were more people like you out there..i really
do. (rate?)


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wow.. but still

WHO HAS A SPARE PHONE?

word has gotten into me that a certain english teacher has exhibited our play, "New Yorker in Tondo" through the use of the video that the IMC has recorded during the 2003 drama fest..

it appears that no permission of any kind has reached me, not even miss rigor..

since that is a cinco production, it personally pains me to see it being shown to other people without the proper proceedings. being the director of the show, i feel that part of my intellectual property has been stolen.

yes, i do believe that it is good to share your material, especially with the following batch to perform the said play. hindi nga namin naipagpaubaya sa vii-8 yung new yorker this year, it will go to something worse pa pala.. sana sa rm8 nln pala napunta.. it would have been better than how it landed to rm7 this year..

i feel so,, robbed! those ideas were mine and cinco's joined together.. naiinis ako! so if ever a vii-7 (and dont dare call yourselves "siete") 2004 gets to read this, i hope this reaches mrs malana..

i also got hold of some news that the said teacher has been giving all-out support to the new yorker cast and zero support to the cast of "the system of professor tuko" since according to her, prof tuko is not a winning play in the said drama fest. i find this news very depressing since her thoughts are so narrow! just because new yorker has brought great heights to cinco, it does not necessarily mean that it will give the same fate to this year's new yorker class.. it's in the determination and the talent of the said class and not purely on the manuscript given to them.. mind you, prof tuko is also a great play.. as we often say, "nasa tao lang iyan!"

so to mrs malana, may the better class win.. and based on my experience, those who are given less assistance are the ones who triumph the most. heck, miss rigor left most of the work to me and abletz and aika, and look at what we have achieved.. all she gave was her support and that was what completed the production.. in the end, we figured out that it was just her support that we needed..

i am not putting bad words in your mouth.. i'm just giving an opinion, for what you did could be punishable by law.. you stole from me and from cinco 03..

hindi lang dahl wala akong date at ninakawan ako ng intellectual property..

hindi ko din alam kung anong playshop class yung ittake ko sa summer.. kasi shempre,, taga musical theater ako pero matagal ko na ring gusto mag-voice.. kaso lang mas maraming friends sa MT eh kaso ln gusto ko din naman mag-voice kasi shempre sa ngayon palaka pa rin ang boses ko.. pero diba? kung mag-stay ako sa MT,, nndun yung mga matagal ko nang kilala.. chka na-iincorporate na rin yung voice sa MT,, at may konting choreography n din.. kaso ln papatayin nanaman ako ng choreographer nyan!! wahaha!!

i miss playshop so much.. pero ang hirap pumili evry year kung anung ittake ko.. ayoko nmn ng dalawa.. kasi ang mahal tapos maraming immemorize!!

MTG,, anung class natin this yr?

hmmm... ito na ang dreaded day ko.. kay abletz n din!! (hi bletz!) dahil valentine's day na!! pero birthday din nina:

tita grace dizon
lesley aldaba
abby ang
daddy ni alex paredes
at ni kris aquino!

kaya happy birthday sa inyong lahat!

kaso lang wala tlga akong date kaya sad pa rin ako at nagtataka ako kung bakit pa ba ako buhay!! linsyak na!! ayoko ng ganito!!

hiniram ni rashmi yung isa kong rockapella c.d.. kaya napaisip ako.. sana may a capella version ng "grow old with you" noh? wala akong paki kung ano mang issue yung maalala ninyo.. maganda yung kanta eh!

naaalala ko din yung kantang "jeepney" ng spongecola.. ang astig nyo!! lalong nakaka-depress.. naaalala ko na naman siya..

HINAYUPAK!! SINO BA SIYA TALAGA?!? ---tanong sa akin ng marami

ang sagot ko: IKAW! BAKIT? MAY ANGAL? CARE MO KUNG AYAW KONG SABIHIN SA IYO??

galit ba ako o sadyang ayokong umibig dahil gusto ko?

MALABO!!

this is what i am right now.. tama yung results!!


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sa mtb's JULOG na naman!! nakakamatay!!

1. kung ang english ng kwintas ay necklace, ano naman ang english ng SINTAS?
ans: necktie (so,, itali mo ang kurbata mo sa sapatos, ha?)

2. kung ang plural ng spice ay spices, ano naman ang plural ng spy?
ans: spices (ang kulit naman!)

nakalimutan ko n yung isa eh.. maganda p naman.. sayang..

naghihintay pa ako sa kasalukuyan..

hmph.. commercial na..

pero masarap yung keebler na soft batch choco chip cookies!! masarap promise!!

3. ilan ang sungay ng unicorn?
ans: dalawa! (hija,, bicorn siguro ang tinutukoy mo.. o baka puede rin rhinoceros? problema mo na yun!)

yun lang eh!! mukhang masaya ang batch ng players ngayong araw!

nanood kami ng kptid ko ng myx ngayon lang.. at ayun.. pinakita yung video na "happy valentine's day" by trina belamide (oi!! paulinian yun!! ipagmalaki natin!!)

tapos, eh di natapos na yung video.. nagkaroon ng commercial..

feeling lonely? cheer up and send your saddest valentine's day story! etc etc etc..............

ang ironic!! hehehe..

onga pala,, dahil galing ako s banyo,, may naalala ako na experience nung bata ako..

kasi eh di ayun,, "nag-rereflect" ako sa banyo.. tapos eh di shempre mejo hindi kaaya-aya yung amoy!! wahehehe.. umuulan ng konti nung time na yun.. eh di shempre cloudy.. eh di sobrang deep na ng reflections ko.. mahirap nga ilabas eh.. eh di ayun!! tapos na ko.. at pag-flush ko,, tumigil ang ulan at sumikat ng araw.. hayy,, ang weather tlga,, sinasabayan ako!

anung klaseng araw ba ito?

una,, pinirata ang new yorker in tondo ng cinco..

pangalawa,, walang support from malana ang vii-8..

tapos ngayon, ito ang text message na natanggap ko..

---cinco!.. cnbhn ng rum8 PARTICULARLY c kit! c grandmama ng "BITCH & SASAMPAL-SAMPALIN ko (i duno f its KO or sumthng. i 4gt e,,) MUKHA NYA" ystrdy! wt wil we dO? PLS PASS

sender: tanya manalaysay
date: 14/02/2004
time: 3:45p.m---

here's another one:

---POLINE! SHET YANG RUM8 NA YAN LALO NA C KIT! ..CNBHN B NMN NG BITCH AT SAMPALSAMPALIN ANG MATABANG MUKHA ni grandmama khpn!ok p un mukha2 e,, pwo d word BITCH? BULSHIT CLA! ..jusko, 2mwg skn ms.R ng mlungkot kc frst tym dw sha msbhn ng gnun! e kc nmn noh! dpt ln n mglt c ms R kc theyv done sumthn wrng! ts ssbhn nila n gnun? pakshet! so,, humhnp cla ng gulo ah! wt wil we do? sbhn mo n rn s ibang tga-cinco.. la na me load eh..

sender: danica gigante
date: 14/02/2004
time: 4:02 p.m---

**komento lamang: danica,, wg m nmn ipagkalat n wla ka na load!!

nwei,, what's happening? plano ko pa nama sana na bgyn ng support yung vii-8 for drama fest!! sayang!

vii-8 ::: if ur just gona do that to ur adviser, u certainly dont deserve ms rigor.. cnbihn nya n nga kayo na hindi sha magiging chu2 sa admin eh, tpos gnyn lang mku2ha nya in return? go to hell!

ms rigor ::: wag mo hayaan n gnynin ka ln nila! u dont deserve to be treated that way.. at kung plano mong tumahimik lang, it's just gona happen over and over and over again.. eh di andaming times mo masasaktan nun? dont let that happen!!

CINCO ::: let's do all that we can do! please! ang daming nangyari sa atin in this week alone.. let's act on it.. all i can give is my support since i cant be with you every single day.. so im leaving it to you to do what is necessary..

you know the feeling when you see couples walking around everywhere, especially during valentine's day? doesnt it just hurt so bad?

i'm all alone and i got no one at my back.. yeah, i do know i've got friends to back me up.. but at some point in their lives they would also have to set you aside because they have their significant other to prioritize!! like, they have their own lives too and you could do nothing but just stare at them getting all mushy with their boy/girlfriends.. i hate it..

lo--? i dont believe in it ryt now.. i despise it! cuz not having it hurts so bad.. i dont even know if i still know how to lo--!

right now,, im in front of the computer,, wearing all black to show that i'm anti lo--!! and i close my eyes upon seeing hearts!! i hate lo--cuz every person i lo-- just wont lo-- me in return!! they wont even take a hint!!

i've stopped smiling.. what's it worth anyways?

i hate myself..

idol na idol ko c melanie marquez!! pramis!

boy abunda: how old were you wen you started?
---i was only going up to 13.. (uhh,, now kasi im up in fifteen na eh.. mas matanda na ako sa staring age mo!)

---i wont change my legs because im contented with my long-legged..
(ayun pala ang original statement!)

---to the poor people in the phils (pinasalamatan sa ms international.. malabo!)

---i boted for you! (basta ba dont bote fpj eh!)

---in the supermodel but it was announced different name! (oh yeah? it was announced different name? but it was boted different person?)

---mga pro-accident yang mga yan!! (so, may party sila tuwing may aksidente? aba'y hindi ata maganda yun!)

---they should talk this matter behind the scene!! (of course! they have to talk it behind the scene so that crew only will be witness!)

tado: baka ma-suspense ka!
---mali yun!! ang dapat dun "na-suspended ka!" (oo nga naman! so dont be kulet! u might be suspense!)

---eh yung mga amerikana jan eh, kung titingan nyo eh mali2 rin ang ingles eh! alam ko yun eh! (panu mo malalaman? eh ikaw nga mismo?!)

---pangit kasi pag may celluleets eh! (yeah! so pangeeeeeet the celluleet!!)

---i dont believe in jealousy.. or enviness! (how about in depressness? it's how i feels eh!)

---------------------it's all over.. balik depressed na naman ako.. i've been sort of betrayed.. and medyo mababaw pero masakit.. ayun na nga lang eh.. itatago pa nya yung truth?

something happened last night that really shattered me.. it's up to you to discover what it is..

in line with the heartbreaking event,, i'd like to share a poem.. i wrote it when i was 12.. it's found in the book "unspoken dreams" by the international library of poetry.. it's kinda lame though so it's advisable not to read it..

here goes my doom..

betrayal

you gave me moments to cherish
helped me up when i was down
you gave me support when i was in need
told me to smile whenever i frowned

you gave me your everything
and served as my guiding light
you became my only angel
and never left my sight

but now that you've betrayed me
i'd have to let you go
now i am honest enough to tell you
you're not the one i used to know

i'm sure heaven's going to miss you
disappointed with what you've done
thanks for giving me all those help
hope without me, your life would be fun

now i am cutting our friendship
leaving it with one last cry
and even if it pains me
i'd have to say goodbye

well,, in reality,, i'd cut the last part.. ayoko shang iwanan.. gusto ko lang sha magbalik sa dati..

anu b kc nangyari,, ndi ka nmn nagsasalita eh.. dati naman sobrang open mo kpg may problema ka.. may ngwa ba akong masama para gantihan mo ko ng gn2? kung meron man, ipaalam mo sakin.. hindi yung bigla ka nln magbabago tapos as if wala tayong pinagsamahan.. i know i have a lot of flaws.. but this wasnt the way you reacted before.. ndi mo ko kailangan i-ignore kung may nagawa akong mali.. kasi marunong naman akong mag-sorry eh..

putang ina naman,, ginawa ko lahat and this is what i get in return? bakit ko nga b sinusulat lahat ng 2? eh alam ko naman na hindi mo rin babasahin..

ayan.. mejo napatigil na ko s pag-iyak.. pero yung pain,, gnun pa rin.. galit ako s magulang ko at sa kptid ko.. cnong kptid? hmm... you be the judge..

naiiyak pa rin naman ako,, ayoko lang ipakita.. pero ang sakit tlga ng feeling, promise! sobrang sakit!

na-dehydrate n ata ako!! at na-eexperience ko ngayon ay matinding sakit ng ulo at facial pains.. ang sakit, promise!

wala akong magawang matino.. papasok p ko tmrw..

paulinians,, swerte nyo wla kayong pasok! kidnapin nyo ko para wla din akong pasok tmrw..

it's not gona be a good week ahead.. i think..

im entrusting this to Him.. kanino pa nga ba?

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmnnnnnnnnnnn.. i still feel the hurt.. i even cried my way home.. i left school at 7pm cuz that's the time the banaag play ended.. syettttttt.. pressure!! i have the banaag play to attend the whole week.. plus lunch time practices for the english play!! darn!! plus trying to solve my personal dilemmas!! man.. this bites..

imagine,, i typed the revised script from 8pm-10:30.. but i aint done yet.. naddrain na ko!! i'm tired!!

then before the play i went to the cafe for like 4 times in a row.. not to mention i went back pa to the h.s bldg to get the chairs fixed.. my legs are screaming already!! minumura na ko ng paa ko!! wehehe.. pero,, who wouldnt get tired naman, diba?

this week,, i'd only eat during recess time.. cuz at lunch we'll be practicing for english,, and at dismissal time,, we'd be running the play til 7pm.. then i'd reach home at 8pm,, skipping dinner na,, and eventually ending up in bed..

then afterwards,, i would cry myself to sleep, like i do everyday..

i need a break.. but i dont have the time..

i'm losing control of myself..

hmmmmmmm... ain't this from a song? i remember,, cara and erika sang it in playshop last summer.. (wow!! it's been almost a year!)

nweiz,, thanks for the comments,, hase,, soyster,, alex,, jo,, and all the rest.. i really do appreciate them..

oh,, and thanks for all the support despite all the trash im going through.. yeah,, i admit,, im going through hell.. until now.. heck,, i just reached home! but im not in the mood to do homework right now so i guess i wont!! i hate working..

ayun.. im still in hell.. the good side of it though, is that i've done 2 poems today.. they're both freeverse poems.. pero parang nakakahiya ilagay dito sa blog.. unrequited love kasi yung theme.. and i know all of you are haters of unrequited love poems cuz they're sooooo common.. but hey! believe it or not,, it's my first time to write about that topic.. should i post it or not? you decide..

mamaya gusto ko gumawa ng anthology ko of unsent letters.. to my family,, to my friends,, to my best friend, and to myself.. wala lang.. i'll write tons of letters pero hindi ko cla issend.. kaya nga unsent letters eh.. wala lang..

onga pala,, to my best friend,, im not sure if u'l get to read this,, or if u would care to read this.. but i want to say

im sorry..

i should have asked you first kung may problema ka ba.. i admit i made a wrong move dahil nagalit ako agad.. hindi ko man lang inintindi kung mern na palang kumakain sayo ng buhay or what.. ang tanga ko tlga! kaya i'm sorry.. i'll try to understand you more.. sa ngayon,, ok lang na hindi mo ko pinapansin... i understand.. i understand perfectly.. fault ko kasi eh.. ako yung unang nagalit.. basta.. i'm sorry.. sana maging ok na ulet tayo.. miss na kita eh..

to cinco.. miss ko na kayo!! nadine,, guada,, mariz,, may nndun na yung kapalit na testi nyo!! chka,, jap.. ok lang yan.. i replied to ur msg na! hayaan mo cla.. u dnt deserve to be treated that way..

sa mga kaibigan ko,, i love you all so much! wow,, i can type the word "love" now! but i'm still under a "spell" or "curse" ...i dunno the better term.. basta im not going to smile until someone...............

that's it for now, i guess.. damn.. i feel a bit lighter but i still feel so burdened..

this bites! my feet want to kill me again! hindi lang nila ko minumura.. sinasapak n yata ako!! haha!!

this day's really tiring.. or better yet,, this week's really tiring!! i dont know what to wear in the english play!! i cant see anything to wear!! i already went through my closets!! and my sister's closets!! and i really cant find any! i guess i'd have to buy one nln.. hayyyyy..

onga pala,, look at my book of the moment.. you have to read that book, promise!! it's so creepy! you have to have a super strong faith so as not to be easily convinced.. natakot ako, promise!!

nweiz,, gosh,, im alarmed with the sudden explosion of star-searches!! i mean,, thousands of people auditioned for those reality t.v shows and well,, my sister and i figured out,, man! ang daming may gusto mag-artista!! kahit na hindi naman magaling,, gagawin lahat magkaroon lang ng easy money..

i do admit i love theater and i want to be part of it till i grow up.. pero im not into it for easy money.. i just want to prove to myself that i have at least one thing i'm good at..

gix: taga-pauliworld k p rin ba? if evr,, can u give me copies of this year's issues? thanks! if ur not in pauliworld na,, ok lang!! hee! chka,,

NASAAN NA YUNG LINK NATIN? KAILANGAN KO NA NG LINK!! PROMISE!! ANG TAGAL KO NA NAGHIHINTAY!!!

uhh,, to everyone,, please watch Banaag's "The Importance of Being Earnest" this Thursday, Friday, and Saturday,, at the Tanghalang Sinag room.. thanks!!

and to the green and pink batch theater enthusiasts,, see you at the Banaag auditions!

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though all those thoughts are running through my head, i still feel the depression within me.. ang galing ko magsuot ng maskara noh?

i came home just now.. and where did i come from?? SCHOOL! man this bites.. and i only got to eat half of my dinner cuz my brother finished it..

i feel so sick.. and im damn tired already! the Banaag play ended at around 8:30 p.m na.. ang bong (hi bong!) was damn good!! we kept on laughing the whole time.. shempre ride on naman clang lahat!


NAIINIS AKO!!
aun.. it ended at 8:30.. eh nung lunch time i was told na the driver will pick me up.. tapos the whole time i was going on with my pathetic life.. and the banaag show started and ended.. when the play ended,, i got a msg from my sister.. she asked if i was sure that the driver would pick me up.. since wala namang sinabi sakin shempre i told her na yes nga kasi tito txtd me.. then aun,, mga 9 na,, they had a miscommunication daw.. kaya kinahinatnan nun,, na-buro ako sa high school grounds ng miriam college at walang ginagawa,, na namumuti na ang mata! to think 2 bars nln battery ng phone ko nun kasi pam played with my phone the whole time.. eh ang bilis ng over maubos yung battery nun wen u play with it.. kaya aun,, hirap n hirap ako.. naiiyak-iyak n nga ko nun eh.. i was picked up sa school ng mga 9:45 pm!

AND TOMORROW BRINGS THE SAME THING..
call time ng banaag show tmrw at 9am.. i need to rest.. kaso lang i wana update my blog din naman para maglabas ng sama ng loob at ng baho ng pagkatao..

THE DAY THAT WAS..
T.H.E knina!! tapos we had to do this stencil thingy.. aun,, eh since yesterday was one of the worst days of my life,, i wrote a sort of angsty thing on my stencil.. my design was a "talk to the hand" sign then beside it,, it said,, "get out of my life!!!"................aun,, i aint done with it yet.. but i'd love to see those words on a shirt.. ALKAP ROCKS!! I HATE YOU SIR PAGULAYAN!! I HATE YOU!!!

THE BEST YET THE WORST DAY... YESTERDAY..
man i was having the worst time yesterday.. i cried from lunch time until 7p.m!! cuz the math mqr's were given out.. and yeah.. i did really bad!! bwiset!! plus,, may mqr din ako sa music!! dahil isang dakilang 29.5 ang score ko eh 30 daw ang passing!! pucha naman!! nakakainis na 'to!! ayoko na ng ganitong mundo!! pero sobrang gumanda na ng last part nung day.. kasi nag-miss call ako kay kapatid tapos ni-miss call nya ko.. eh di shempre nagulat ako kasi she hasnt called me the whole week!! tapos nag-call sha nung tme na i was already breaking down.. i was then thinking na wala akong friends to back me up and all dahil sa dami ng problema ko.. tapos aun..

kapatid: thanks kasi may time tayo to talk last night.. sorry ndi kita natawagan today.. tingin ka nln sa mga sinulat ko s taas para malaman mo yung reason.. pero thanks tlga sa last nyt.. u gave me the assurance n ur still there for me pala.. thanks tlga..

CINCO: pa-send ako ng cinco pix!! i wana upload them here.. shempre i love you all pa rin!! sobra!! sana hindi pa rin kayo nagbabago.. kung may issues man at na-blind item na kayo sakin ni ms rigor this yr,, sana matauhan na kayo n hindi gaano maganda yung gnwa nyo.. pero kahit na may errors din kayo,, i still love all of you dahil nung "new yorker 2004 controversy" at nung "kit-grandmama" issue,, naging one ulet tayo at nkita ko kung gaano nyo nga ka-love yung cinco.. handa pa rin pala kayong makipagpatayan!! i love all of you at miss ko na kayo sobra!! hope ur all doing well cuz i'm not.. musta grades? sana ok lang.. matatapos na tayo sa 1st yr.. i know maraming changes n nangyari.. pero wag pa rin kayo makalimot!!

----------matutulog na ko.. may show pa bukas...

wow.. mejo matagal akong ndi nag-update!! busy kasi with school and club eh.. anyways,,

hmmmmmmm... wow!! poj (my 7-yr old brother) has been invited to the bday party of his crush!! wala lang.. he's there right now.. and he was mighty excited this morning.. he chose his best clothes!! gosh.. ang bata pa lang eh.. bumalik na naman yung love fever nya! sana hindi sha ma-torpe!

hmmmmmm... "the importance of being earnest" is over.. fortunately,, Banaag got good reviews.. then bong (hi ulet, bong!) was hysterical with laughter during act 2!! humaba tuloy yung act 2 cuz they had quite a hard time thinking of where they were gona take it from.. haha!! but it was a GREAT show!

onga pala, the Banaag auditions will start tomorrow! to those who dont have application forms yet,, just bring a 1x1 picture tomorrow! check out the Banaag bboard for more info!

uhh,, gosh,, playshop na in a few weeks!! wow!! haha!! im excited!! tara,, join tayo! enjoy un!!

change ng topic..

this week may have been the roughest week for me! gosh!! all the pressure and stuff.. i wasnt able to get through a day without shedding tears! wala lang.. hope it would be over soon..

JEKI AND ALEX: sorry ndi ko pa ma-post yung melanie marquez stuf.. ang daming ginagawa eh!! the stuf!! man!! ang hirap!!

JEKI: patulong nmn gumawa ng powerpoint sa science.. kme p ln ni sam yung gmgwa.. wla lng..

KAPATID: wehehe.. sorry last nyt tinulugan kita!! pagod ako eh.. sobrang pagod! sorry tlga!! love you!

CINCO: check nyo mga email nyo.. may announcements na panibago! hope you're all doing fine.. pakabait kayo!! hehe.. love n love ko kayo!!

PAT: thanks kc pmunta ka khapon!! ang astig mo!! chka thanks s panibagong mabblind-item!! love u!

MTG 2003: what class are we joining?

wow!! summer na!! (kahit na mejo umuulan ngayon!!) gusto ko n mag-summer!! the school year's almost over!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! enjoy!!!!!!!!!! tinatamad n ko pumasok!!

playshop na!! thanks to hase,, alam ko n yung sked!! yey!! see you, mtg!! MTG pa rin dw yung course.. 3-5:30.. kaso lang the tuition went up! gggrrrrarrrrrrr!!! pero tchr chari daw ulet yung teacher!! patay! hahaha!! yet another two months will come!! yikes!! sigawan na naman!! hahaha!!

see you people!!

whooh!! there aint no classes tomorrow.. but still there would be on thursday and friday.. PLUS! we've got a lot of stuff to work on.. the math long test,, the banaag auditions,, the english play,, etc!! damned school!! i'm glad it'd end soon!

i miss playshop!! gwarsh!! it's been a long time already!

nweiz,, nako,, inis n inis ako s banaag auditions ah!! wla kc pumupunta n green batch sa auditions.. ayan 2loy,, nasasabihan tayo ng duwag! ikaw,, bkt ndi ka nag-audition,, duwag ka din, noh? hmph!! 3 na nga lang kme n green batch s banaag eh.. ibig sbihn b nun,, kme ln yung malakas ang loob?!

aun,, wlaln,, nkk-banas..

student council elections knna.. wlaln.. miss ko na yung elections sa spcp!! hehe,, yung may comelec n gr7 tpos nka-line lahat ng ppl s labas,, with the thumbmarks and all!!

kaisipan lang.. nagkaroon kaya ng black market nung student council elections? wala lang.. parang hindi na-satisfy yung majority s results..

aie,, onga pala,, happy bday ms yao!! wlaln.. tama!!

...miss ko na strangebrew...

im going to church in a while.. ang tagal ni ate eh.. hee!! aun,, and im home now!! haha!! i left the comp on,, and connected to the internet!! bwahahahaha!!

uhh,, hmmmmm..... i feel so tired!! and so HOT! i need cold air!! haaaaahhhh!! w8 ln, i'l turn on the aircon..

ayan,, it's on na!! i cn concentrate na!! wahehehe.. aun,, i went to church at 7:30 na cuz my sister got caught in a traffic jam!! then nagrrush na kme and by the time we got to church,, kk-tpos lang maglagay ng ashes.. bagal kc ni poj eh!! buti nln we saw on the board na there's gonna be a mass at 8p.m pa!

aun,, we attended na din the 8p.m mass.. tapos when the priest placed the ash on my forehead,, naramdaman ko n mejo nagssting.. i remembered,, may pimple pala ko s forehead ko!! yikes!! kahiya!! ang hapdi pa rin hanggang ngayon!!

hmmm... there's school again tomorrow.. nkk-tamad!! i need a break.. this day ain't a break.. i cant wait for summer to come..

hope i lose weight with all the fasting that lent would bring.. but more than that,, shempre sana maka-sacrifice din ako.. for Him..

You're taffy!! You're a clever and kind person,
but you tend to hold grudges. You are not big
on dishing out forgiveness.


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man!! coding nnmn c ate tmrw.. so i'l be in school na by 6:30a.m!!! katamad!! wla kc school ng wednesday ayan 2loy feeling ko mejo weekend-y na!! grrrarrr!!!

deep thoughts muna...

kanina mejo contemplative ako.. kc parang ang sarap mag-isip mag-isa.. aun,, ang saya!!

hmmm... naiinis na ko s school.. malapit nang matapos.. kaso lang hindi pa rin naman tapos.. konting araw n nga lang ang natitira,, puro hirap at pasakit naman ang laman.. hindi naman ako magiging mayaman bukas kung pumasa ako sa math test bukas.. hindi naman ginagamit ang mga p.s.t kapag may pamilya na ko.. bakit ko pa kakailanganin na mahanap ang value ng X kapag naging director ako ng isang pelikula,, eh ang X sa industriyang iyon,, rating lang kung bastos ba yung nagawa mong film.. diba?

bakit nga ba nandyan ang mga guro? para b tlga magturo o magparusa? anu ba nagawang kasalanan naming mga bata upang punan nyo kami ng walang-sawang trabaho na hindi naman dapat namin ginagawa? hindi na nga kayo nagtuturo,, kayo pa nagagalit kapag nagkakanda-leche-leche yung grades namin! kaninong kasalanan ba? sa inyo rin naman eh! akala nyo kayo lang nahihirapan? kung tutuusin kami mas lalo, ano! at least kayo may bayad yung gngwa nyo,, eh kme,, dugo't pawis ng magulang namin pinapambayad sa inyo! para pahirapan kme? hindi ata puede yan!! kami n nga nagbabayad,, kami pa nasasaktan in the end?

the justice system is really gone, is it?

basta naniniwala ako dun sa nakalagay sa site ni bob ong...

"i won't let my schooling interfere with my education.."

i may learn a lot of things from school.. but as i believe,, the things i learn out of school are far better than the ones learned within those gates that spell my doom.. kasi when i'm out of school,, it gives me more time to think of the goings-on around me.. my eyes are more exposed to what's really there to think of rather than thinking of what lessons in school i missed or thinking about the quizzes to come.. kasi when i'm in school,, it feels so uptight.. not that i long for total liberty.. i just want to be me and not to conform with what my teacher wants out of me..

if there's one place that i'd despise for the rest of my life,, that'd be school.. subject? MATH! F*CKING MATH! teacher? MY MATH TEACHER!! IF U GET TO READ THIS, PROBLEMA MO NA YUN!

i hate school... laban ka?

nawala yung ni-type ko kanina!! nag-hang kc yung comp!

nwei,, maganda yung sinulat ni ms milan sa magnificat.. yung tungkol sa love.. wala lang.. ang galing.. *bow!* basahin nyo din..

nakakabanas yung math long test.. fortunately,, i was able to answer all the problem solving stuf.. hindi lang ako sure dun sa #3.. sana lang tama ako..

kaka-tapos ko lang gumawa nung C.L. reflection paper.. yung tungkol sa family.. naiiyak-iyak pa nga ako sa kasalukuyan.. nag-iisip na naman ako ng malalim..

ilang sandali na lang at hihiga na ako sa inaasam-asam kong kama!! miss ko na sha!! syet,, ang sakit na ng paa ko!!

hayy... may banaag auditions pa sa Monday! sa mga pumasa,, matira'ng matibay!! bwahahahahahaha...

playshoppers,, join class MTG! it's fun!!

onga pala,, i'm selling the playbill of Banaag's recent play, "The Importance of Being Earnest" for only a hundred smackers! it's worth it, promise.. limited copies only.. it's a collector's item.. so you have to have it!

hmmmmmmmmm... in a few minutes it's gona be "That's So Raven" already!! gotta scram! nyt!

totoo ba na march 1 na bukas? mahirap paniwalaan.. masaya sana kasi march na,, kaso lang mejo hindi pa rin gaano masaya dahil syempre,, marami pa ring projects na due!!

on the lighter side, patapos na ang paghihirap na dala ng 1st year.. kaso dahil 1st yr high school pa lang ako,, may 3 yrs pang nalalabi...sa hs,, at hindi ko alam kung ilang taon pa sa kolehiyo.. anak ka ng tinapay! ang tagal pa nun!!

wow,, hindi na ko freshman in a matter of half a month or so.. and i feel a year older and wiser.. pero feeling ko lang yun.. ewan ko kung totoo.. well, sana..

wala lang.. i feel a bit sad today,, mejo may pagka-empty..

kapatid!! miss u na!! hi kay sev,, pam,, bletz,, achay,, pat,, danica,, tanya,, leyba,, sam,, grandmama,, sa lahat ng taga-cinco!! sa mga 7'03 at pati na rin sa new students sa batch na mahal ko! hope ur all ok,, hi din sa mga grade school teachers ko.. kung naging fave tchr kita,, thanks so much chka miss u na!! kung naging masama ka naman sakin,, bahala ka,, wala akong utang n loob s mga tulad mo!! hi jungle!! kala mo nkalimutan na kita noh?! hindi pa!! ang laki ng kasalanan mo sakin.. may araw ka rin! ur gona pay... hi nga pala sa mga new tchrs back there!! ingatan nyo mga kaibigan ko.. dahil kung nde,, mag-ingat na kayo dahil huhuntingin ko kayo! wow,, mag-iisang taon na kayo!! kung mahadera kayo,, sana napahirapan kayo ng mga taong mahal ko.. kung mejo mabait naman,, consider yourselves blessed dahil walang nagtanim ng galit sa inyo!!

uhh,, hi sa mga taga-mtg!! i miss all of u so much.. hope most of us will be classmates again this summer!! teacher chari,, get ready for my return!! i'll be a pain in the neck again!! though i'll try hard not to be! hee!!

good luck nln sakin!! i have a c.l reflection paper due tomorrow.. and my music practical test will be tomorrow.. and i have to re-stage new yorker in tondo on wednesday.. with a different cast.. cinco,, hindi ko kasalanan 2.. our tchr assignd us with new yorker.. onga pala,, hi kay precious,, pam,, abletz,, michele and teresa!! kung cno man s inyo may video ng new yorker,, gimme a copy nmn oh?! i'd love to relive our triumphant moment!

uhh,, hi s mga kapitbahay ko.. hi godzilla!! wlaln.. nasa garage ka ngyn.. maligo ka na!! nawawala suklay mo!! chka magpabili ka na ulet ng dog food kasi paubos na naman!!

thank you sa skechers for my shirt (yung sponsor ng f4 concert nung dec 26.. langhiyang all access pass yan! kung anu2ng misadventures!!).. nautica for my shorts.. kim possible for my slippers,, nokia for my phone..

...masarap bumati!...

talaga? nanjan ka para sakin kung kailangan kita, o kahit na ba hindi kita kailangan?

talaga? hinihintay mo rin ako? at ang sagot nila? na sobrang tagal ko na hinihintay?

dont get me wrong.. im not doubting you.. im just,, surprised n cnabi mo lahat yan..

kinakabahan ako na mag-end na yung school year.. excited pero kabado for some reason you shouldnt know..

c.l paper... walanghiya!!

english project,, wag ka na!! please lang!!

hmmmmmmm... aun,, biktima na rin ako ng writers block tulad ni bletz,,